i find it to be alright.

hmm, im sitting here wondering what im gonna do next. i got a lot on my plate! let's list this!

1. Homework (English, German, Science, Arts, Math) for this week
   
2. Album Art (Pictures, Drawing, Managing, Arranging)
   
3. Rehearsal (Vocal Training)
   
4. Writing more music (Next Album)
5. Separating Tracks for each song (11 songs each/4-8 tracks a piece!)

this is soooo owch! and it stresses me out... lol im not hearing from any friends about going out or anything so im pretty much good for school! ;] that's the most important thing. Doing all this music and then having my school not fuctioning (the only downfall for it being online) i missed about 2 or 3 weeks... no biggie since it only began about 2 or 3 weeks ago lol. I HATE school... i don't encourage anyone to not go, but personaly.. yuck. lol

ooh and my album... i havn't the clue of what the hells it's gonna look like yet! so annoying! i know im gonna have a few selections to choose from but im hoping to come up with something by tomorrow so i could present everything to them. But if i am not ready, it is no big deal either.... haha the most important thing for now is getting my current album to them ASAP! so i could get freakin overseas!!!

hmm as far as new music goes... i havn't got around that much. I'm kinda waiting for the cold to come, and those what seems to be rare days when it rains just how i'd like it to. Where the skies are overcasted and the rain poors, and it's about the middle of the day kind of (well, when the kids aren't home) and i could just chill outside alone with a demo beat i made or guitar in hand to be able to write to... i know those moments happen... but that's when it's just right for me... for what im looking to do anyways; that puts me in the mood.

the separating of the tracks is a PAiN!!!!!!! lol i shoulda started it as soon as i got the PA in the house! but i was too busy discovering my new found abilities! lol but at the same time, when im sitting in front of the computer editing everything so that it's decent enough for them to hear & work with i get caught up in the moment anyways haha...

ahhh but anyways let's all let out a sigh and keep getting fatter (on my part anyways) and MAKE MUSiC!!! the next time around it won't be so stressful! lol gotta get these things together my way or it's not gonna work at all... and as soon as i get back on track it'll be smooth sailing! ;] WELP gotta go do those things all at random!! lol

suddenly i discover something new
jairemie

Discreet!

i am 18 years old... i do whatever i want. lol those are the chozen words i choose to get confidance in my mind from having a birthday yesterday! it was great!!! and i smoked a cig in from of my family for the first time! haha, no i can't say it was my first time but hey.. ;] there has to be some kind of first for everything right? hehe

but yeah... my album is pushed back ;/ that means im gonna spend extra time doing my album and making it better for your ears... i mean, im super alright with it! i wanna get into it, the only prob is that i hate re-recording anything, cuz i feel it looses it's authenticity and i don't feel that same emotion... but like EVERY recording, i gotta take my time and go through it properly. I know im just gonna have bits and pieces here and there where we could get all the perfects together haha.

so what im looking at, is releasing the mastered crisp version of "Cry Diamonds" to Germany in like a month! amazing, and then from there on hopefully i have the video of it done, then onto going out there... then onto releasing the album or whatever it's gonna be!!! it's gonna at least be something nice. lol i was just thinking about how much i have to maintain this "look" of mine for a while... dude, im wondering what the hell im gonna look like for this next different album!

all in do time, and patience! i just need to sit back and enjoy a cig, make some money and work as hard as i could until i really get into doing the one thing i love for life! ya know... but anyways... today is a dreadful day. Homework. ;[ NOT looking forward to it at all... hopefully throughout the day i will get every single little thing done for this week. i sware it wasn't intence as it is this starting year... only two weeks and i feel like crapping my pants! the horror!

oh yeah that was really messed up what Kanye did and the VMAs... Taylor is such a great person and she really absolutely deserved that Moon Man!!!! she's dominating! ;] it's so great to watch... and hopefully soon be in that same position performing and whatnot! ;] yeah well, im gonna smoke (maybe) then go to sleep... got a lot to think about tomorrow! ugh in another note... soon im gonna have videos posted maybe here and definitely my YouTube page of a series of videos called Discreet showing you the little steps im taking towards "Cry Diamonds" release and album fun! ;]

bye now!