Discreet!

i am 18 years old... i do whatever i want. lol those are the chozen words i choose to get confidance in my mind from having a birthday yesterday! it was great!!! and i smoked a cig in from of my family for the first time! haha, no i can't say it was my first time but hey.. ;] there has to be some kind of first for everything right? hehe

but yeah... my album is pushed back ;/ that means im gonna spend extra time doing my album and making it better for your ears... i mean, im super alright with it! i wanna get into it, the only prob is that i hate re-recording anything, cuz i feel it looses it's authenticity and i don't feel that same emotion... but like EVERY recording, i gotta take my time and go through it properly. I know im just gonna have bits and pieces here and there where we could get all the perfects together haha.

so what im looking at, is releasing the mastered crisp version of "Cry Diamonds" to Germany in like a month! amazing, and then from there on hopefully i have the video of it done, then onto going out there... then onto releasing the album or whatever it's gonna be!!! it's gonna at least be something nice. lol i was just thinking about how much i have to maintain this "look" of mine for a while... dude, im wondering what the hell im gonna look like for this next different album!

all in do time, and patience! i just need to sit back and enjoy a cig, make some money and work as hard as i could until i really get into doing the one thing i love for life! ya know... but anyways... today is a dreadful day. Homework. ;[ NOT looking forward to it at all... hopefully throughout the day i will get every single little thing done for this week. i sware it wasn't intence as it is this starting year... only two weeks and i feel like crapping my pants! the horror!

oh yeah that was really messed up what Kanye did and the VMAs... Taylor is such a great person and she really absolutely deserved that Moon Man!!!! she's dominating! ;] it's so great to watch... and hopefully soon be in that same position performing and whatnot! ;] yeah well, im gonna smoke (maybe) then go to sleep... got a lot to think about tomorrow! ugh in another note... soon im gonna have videos posted maybe here and definitely my YouTube page of a series of videos called Discreet showing you the little steps im taking towards "Cry Diamonds" release and album fun! ;]

bye now!