Got something to say... to... YOU! (Indirectly) ;]

it was an insane show yesterday. I watched this one comic (;[ iono her name right now) and a headliner Debbie Wooten perform. I had the opportunity to open for them both! ;] and sang "Cry Diamonds", "The Rain" and "Shout It Out". lol it was a little awkward for me, because how weird is it to sing for a comedy audience? haha no but it was so cool. And now it is exactly 1:12am, and i am tired as hell! iono why because i totally slept until 3pm for the show... but i am fighting to finish this blog!!! lol

im so excited about what is coming... im just sitting back and watching it all unfold. The only thing i need to control is my school. I been falling behind, like i said before, missing some contracts and everything. UGH! that's the only stressful thing that's goin along on my part. It seems everything else is just falling as is though which is delightfully good... Tomorrow is the D.A.S.H. benifit performance, and im excited to perform for the kids... hoping to get others inspired and to support the talents that come into their program!

ummmm... well i enjoy hearing what this "self-proclaimed" rapper/artist has to say about me because i called him out in one word, which was "disrespectful" for saying the things he was saying to my mother as a manager both directly and indirectly, and all of that nonsence. Now he is going around saying he wants to squash every artist in the city; referance to me obviously, and he's the best rapper...... ugh let me tell you something. I am no rapper... we are completely different. Get over yourself!! we will never compare, point bahhhh-lank! lol hmm and then going on about making a dissing song... aww im pretty sure he's been waiting to do something like this for a long time... cuz a real rapper would have a real diss song about someone huh? dummie.

people like this i cannot wait to forget all about. and that's beginning to happen. heck i'll even make a diss track myself! i'll just wip it up in 10min and post as a demo on my MySpace... how's that? oh the glory you would have if i created a masterpiece about you... too bad that's not gonna happen. You do not deserve any kind of sympathy from me. neg. or pos. sssooorrryyyy wannade. HA! moving on... hoping to have another episode of Discreet on the 30th. Fill you in on my boredome i guess haha, my stresses of school, travels and everything that i just talked about. Haha i can't wait for you to see me in the studio recording and me and my WONDERFUL Crew making indirect speeches!! ;]

2 performances in a row this weekend ;] i got my groove back! i really gotta get on a sleep schedule, but at the same time, will i really need it for when i tour?! might as well get used to it now i guess... i really gotta get some homework done too... hmm i just might bring up my printer to do it now. If it weren't so damn COLD in this house! (this is meaning we don't have to pay that much for the electric! whoop!) im getting my shit together. But the prob is im going in and out of the "zone". Like, now im thinking about it with a slightly tiny burst of adrenalin, then nothing at all the next sec- like now. lol oh well ULTiMATE KiCK! ;] i wanna watch Hot Rod now ;]]]]]]

i stop to think of it. we just can't even imagine how great we're gonna be.
jairemie

Making it My own.

Discreet started yesterday, and im hoping to have enough footage for next week! lol but it's so great right now... im just chilling outside right now listening to the birds and watching the sun hide behind the clouds ever so often. earlier today i had lunch with my A&R and it was so great!!! i ordered a Patty Melt, but it wasn't like the patty melt i had with Kaycee when we went to Idaho... nothing at ALL! lol im on vocal rest right now for my own sake preparing for some last minute recording of my album... then later we ship it to Germany for its release! lol i have a EURO Manager now... pshh i think he was already one from the start! and im so excited to do these many things as soon as possible.

i been getting a lot of song ideas in my head bouncing around for the start of my next album which you'll prolly see in Discreet. Oh yeah! and im gonna start working at Guitar Center too. DETERMiNATiON! ..all this stuff going on with other "so-called" artist is stupid. People thing they're really greater than other people... i don't bother with that kind of nonsence, especially when they're coming at my family the way they do, and also my record label!! URGH! already conflict! with people who have the hugest heads on Earth!!!!! anyways... there's more friends to be made in this industry that help one another out big time, in a bigger way anyways!!! i've always thought, it's about the music not about higher presentation!! i could save that for later when i become a rolemodel. Cars, Money, Sex... that's not all there is to talk about.

annnnddd i've come to the conclution! ;] im happy first my first single(s)! 'Cry Diamonds', along with the second or "sub" single, 'The Rain' ...exciting! and i can't wait to introduce my second single i should say! i guess everything falls into place when you let it... and in God's hands. Not everything has to go one route. I mean, look... i got this far by myself huh? im just too excited to show everyone what's up and what's next! so many things to do in a window of time ;] WHOOP!

"keep your feet on the ground, when your head's in the clouds..." - Paramore
jairemie