waiting it out, and sitting here cold.

i can't remember what i was gonna talk about... But i had an amazing time at Christmas Spectacular! ;] it seems every year that goes by, people wanna jump RIGHT into the next holiday... it's kinda warming knowing that people actually care and wanna keep the warm spirit alive! It was so funny when mom, Nina, Derrick and Julia were describing their stage freight for me being up there! haha i was nervous before going on, but of course lost myself during the time, i always do... especially during performances like that, where it is nothing but a single instrument and my voice! I met a whole lot of people too!!!! all of them i could chill with forever! ;]

but now i sit- well actually lay here bored out of my mind, thinking about how conscience i am over not turning in my homework last week... oops!! majorly procrastinated! haha. i told myself today that i was gonna watch Julie & Julia but totally wooomped on that one and watched other crap instead... tomorrow maybe.. Im wanting more inspiration!!!!!!!!! i have all these tracks to write to and no mind for it... it all came to me at the start, but now all of a sudden i draw a blank! this never happens to me. But i come to think that there is just so many people in the house that i usually do my work extensively alone and junk like that! shizzle! but oh well it will happen soon... i was hoping this weather could boost my emotions a little... maybe a little soul-searching would do the trick... with that i mean finding people to date... and have those kinds of emotion... ahh who knows..

today i think im gonna clean my lil area, then make sure everything is going right. And at least try to get some inspiration out of this secluded emotional boundary that i do have now. haha i've decided im sticking to my hairstyle and i am just gonna make it more and more dramatic as time passes. It's the only variety choice i have at the moment! haha. other than that, lets hope i find something to do. Not smoking, or being lazy is killer. haha i was just beginning to have fun! but i pick love way more over that! hmm, what else? well, im very much wanting to get out of this house as you could probably sence. I always have a lot to think about at night, which is the best time for me to get away... i mentioned on my twitter how i need to put my "Remie" on, siting that i wish to be more intense and direct with my decisions, and at the same time not think about it as much! breaking the mold has always been one of my things, but in my personal life... i set up my natural ways with simplicity rather than optimism. Indeed... IT IS TIME TO CHANGE THAT!

i am noticing big change though... if one thing isn't moving along then is another... gotta keep patience! it's just like.... how to i keep occupied? im so confused, haha i mean i know im thinking about relationships but maybe im too scared of it! it's so crazy cuz like, i watch people go in and out of relationships my whole life, and i feel i know the ins and outs of them all... pretty intence, but for me, i see those things and i NEVER EVER want them to happen to me, i mean i even get the butterfly feeling in my stomach just thinking about it........ that's exactly what i want right now, someone by me at least. cuz i literaly ain't got nothing but thought, myself, words, and plain patience. No one knows exactly how i feel and that is the one thing i am lacking... but music is where i put it all regaurdless if anyone understands at all or not. where's that person in my life life... ya know? hmm... maybe some greater things are on it's way... time will tell..

please tell me stories with your touch
never fill my head with words
and don't blind me with love
hold me with love instead.

Ice Chamber

it speaks for itself... everything is in a standstill and is frozen. I've been getting inspired here and there to write different things for this new album. It's gonna take a long process for the most part and i know that. I'm just getting more excited on my own about the hidden work im attempting to keep secret for as long as i could... from my family and especially from everyone else ;]

i need a studio tho... and the problems with my label is that it's pretty much unavailable. Pshh, not my style. lol well i got my Cambridge notebook with all of my personal songs that im making storing or producing! im anxious to fix my computer and just get started. Every song that im coming across are giving me these greatest ideas... ranging from Rock to R&B to just other things. lol honestly the songs im letting out right now are more ballady and stuff like that. I'm a little surprized, because that's how intentionally i wanted it.

I think i could stick with piano and guitar songs for a while until everything else is falling into place. Iono, are you ready to move forward? i am, it just has to happen! anyways, on another note; i been busy figuring out what we're gonna do with this album and when it's REALLY coming!!!! i know it's gonna be next year! i mean, it's gotta be. Everything's getting arranged i guess over here. Im trying to push a video for a song off of the album for everyone to see online... then follow up with my first single!

I saw 2012 yesterday... and it's pretty intense. It kinda makes you think, but iono personally i keep wondering if i could handle everything? lol dude, DON'T think about it!!!! sdfk;jjghskxfh... i don't wanna! yeah yeah...

break the ice!
jairemie

Through The Looking Glass

things are still not moving and im seeming to be growing impatient. I have a whole bunch to write about tho... but it doesn't help that my main music computer wants to die out on me... well, the visual at least. I'm REALLY hoping everything will move forward once family gets here..... i've noticed they are my greatest strengths! i mean besides very close friends, unfortunately to name a few (Alex, Joe, KC, Sophie, Kierra, Kat, Mary, Shauntae) i mean those are the ones who i could remain in contact and skip out like 328975532 days until the next time. Iono what it is, but it's all good to me! i mean those are like- IT! my lucky 8 right? lol anyways...

yes, i am getting tired of feeling like im at the end of the school year with absolutely nothing what-so-ever to do in the middle of Fall. This ain't right! so what im doing now is building up for my next album. I have quite a few songs to lay down which i might consider that, but these new ones are heartfelt! & i just wanna make it right and meaningful. This is totally gonna be an album of what i feel at the moment and pretty deep nonetheless from ballad type songs to club hits, i wanna have it all but share the message as well. I already have the name ready. ((FP)) cannot say yet! ready ready ready to go!

but iono today im feeling refreshed! last night i had to make up my mind, and finally decided that this person in my life has got to go. I can't believe that i know better than that! it's a great relization! i kinda slept all day but i sure needed it! and i mean what else can i do since i have a problem on my hands where it involves my music!!!! URGH! but everything besides the fact, i picked my bro and sis up from school and we went out to get some coffee, on my lovely card haha.. didn't know that i was gonna be so cool about all these responsibilities, i grew up quickly.

iono... hopefully you could get the raw version of "Father Figure" i intended to use on 'FP'. It really means a lot, and hopefully i could capture everything i want to produce for it so everyone could feel the vibe and relate and stuff. But what do you call it when you're at home for large amounts of times and you really can't get out anywhere... i mean yeah it's cool to go out and pick the kids up and what not, but i REALLY want to travel and make this album bigger than it is (which the label is holding me back from). I mean, that's the main passion of mine, i wanna be able to share my music with everyone who has ears and are willing to listen, not play it over and over constantly in my own household. i am getting no where! and fast!

it's good tho that we're planning things a head and at least trying to get things done around what im obligated for i guess, which isn't really anything... but like i keep telling myself, i need to move on more and more and it will get better. It has to get better, i know that once im release from all this nonsence and i stop making nonsence for myself, it is all going to get better. but hmm, now what to do??? do homework, then watch a movie. oh geez what a life! ERR! maybe i'll go practice my performance too. haha thanx for baring with me at least and everything that is holding me back!!! that just gives me a great idea for an intense song! WHOO HOO!!!

at least i have the lazy time now to look through the looking glass to see my bright future.
jairemie

Making it My own.

Discreet started yesterday, and im hoping to have enough footage for next week! lol but it's so great right now... im just chilling outside right now listening to the birds and watching the sun hide behind the clouds ever so often. earlier today i had lunch with my A&R and it was so great!!! i ordered a Patty Melt, but it wasn't like the patty melt i had with Kaycee when we went to Idaho... nothing at ALL! lol im on vocal rest right now for my own sake preparing for some last minute recording of my album... then later we ship it to Germany for its release! lol i have a EURO Manager now... pshh i think he was already one from the start! and im so excited to do these many things as soon as possible.

i been getting a lot of song ideas in my head bouncing around for the start of my next album which you'll prolly see in Discreet. Oh yeah! and im gonna start working at Guitar Center too. DETERMiNATiON! ..all this stuff going on with other "so-called" artist is stupid. People thing they're really greater than other people... i don't bother with that kind of nonsence, especially when they're coming at my family the way they do, and also my record label!! URGH! already conflict! with people who have the hugest heads on Earth!!!!! anyways... there's more friends to be made in this industry that help one another out big time, in a bigger way anyways!!! i've always thought, it's about the music not about higher presentation!! i could save that for later when i become a rolemodel. Cars, Money, Sex... that's not all there is to talk about.

annnnddd i've come to the conclution! ;] im happy first my first single(s)! 'Cry Diamonds', along with the second or "sub" single, 'The Rain' ...exciting! and i can't wait to introduce my second single i should say! i guess everything falls into place when you let it... and in God's hands. Not everything has to go one route. I mean, look... i got this far by myself huh? im just too excited to show everyone what's up and what's next! so many things to do in a window of time ;] WHOOP!

"keep your feet on the ground, when your head's in the clouds..." - Paramore
jairemie