Mental Immunity

i would not call what others would call "stress" now... because i've really had my ups and downs lately, just a little bit, all the time. lol So my feel on things are taking a turn. If it were not for my family i don't have no idea what kinda state of mind i'd be in right now. Recently, we've looked into where im at as far as records being released and distribution nonsence, ya know stuff that didn't make sence to me at all a long time ago. Everything comes in, in such short notice but i learn awfully quickly. THINGS ARE NOT GETTING DONE. so i've decided to take it in my own hands and let me and my family take care of things. It's the only way i'll get anywhere at all in time.

So as you know, NOV. 23 was supposedly my release date for 'Jairemie Alexander' in the UK right? well distribution is not there. Then on DEC. 12 the release in US. nope! never gonna happen, not at the rate this is going at all. I was going to have a 12 day tour for the album "low budget" i may add to it's release... there is no way you're gonna here about it then! i am getting promised so many things as well, like we're gonna have it here and there by this time or whatever and people will get to hear it before it comes out (in other words, "i will get you the deal you really need")... luckly i don't have anything you could hear past Cry Diamonds, i mean it ruins everything... and it's suppose to be low budget?! under the years agreement that we dealt for, No way. No How. my end of the bargain is there... i just have a very bad agreement. Trust me the album WILL drop and it's only a matter of time. We are just set soooo back from this, when this shoulda been taken care of a very long time ago.

Things will still happen as we get this predicament sorted out, this is my side project to do. We're looking at putting the video to "Cry Diamonds" up fairly soon, but knowing this situation we might have to wait a while... no problem tho. i need to re-evaluate everything anyways ;] and possibly start on my next album as well. (slowly now...) URGH! Congradulations on Rihanna and Lady GaGa for their releases on the 23rd i hear! ;]. Hopefully soon tho, the timing really has to be right for this. Like i mentioned before, this winter is lame for releases!! But going into the new year is all the better! i have to make some decitions! lol but until then i am STILL working! and this is gonna get done! oh and i should be putting another DISCREET up soon, i know i've been slacking. But i hate when there are mistakes where there shouldn't be.. lol bye now!

i think at this point, im ready to change the face of some part of the world
jairemie

Stresses Of Life.

this week is so intense... What have i gotten myself into? lol this morning i got everything going for my "Cry Diamonds" shoot which takes place shooting at the end of November and im excited! well, im excited to shoot that actual day when i know i've decided what i decided. But everything else i have to get ready and it's crazy, just because there's a show today and my voice is deciding to stray away from me a little which AiN'T cool lol. Hmm and knowing management is elsewhere when i have to take care of Cry Diamonds- DUDE!!!! ahh.

haha but im good, taking it day by day and getting things ready ready READY! uh but what's happened? well i cannot believe everything! the other day i sat down with "the people" and went over decisions and things... over all i guess it was my decision, and we went with going what we had originally planned like 238954 times before haha. And now, everything is just lifting off, overviewing everything and getting things prepped in a matter of days and months; it's crazy! Thanks to this weather also, im getting pretty creative and coming up with some ideas, not any i could pin-point but they're coming along...

dude, it is so hard to consider (already) what you're gonna do beforehand on the NEEEXXXTTT album! wwwhhhhaaatttt??? lol ;] but i guess im ok, cuz this one's already done! hehe.....
im amazed at some of these people who are willing to contribute different things at this time of year.. i mean, it's very mellow this time and it's just perfect eh? to create a new album! ALL winter!

haha the thing that annoyed me today was Dexter [the dog] whom has bitten me upon my nose for me blowing in his face... i guess i deserved it after many many many times of blasting his face with carbon dioxide (...right?) lol ergh, what am i gonna do! lol uh, but now im just chillin waiting for this show to arrive, vox resting, and at least "trying" to do homework- omg, i HATE it! ...OH!!! and in other news, one of my best friends is having her first baby in November following beautiful my cousins birthday. And she wants me to name him! chyeah! ;] im excited for her! and i can't wait to have my baby fix! haha

anyways i need to get back to gazing at the beautiful fall setting outside and trying to get my energy back to get the dumb homework done... as well as thinking about going to the store to buy some pumpkin pie... that sounds so good right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;]

when the sun goes down, and the clouds fall upon us in the morning
all the things fall could represent, i juuuusssttt love it!!
jairemie

Patience Child...

wow, what a day! my favorite weather was constant all today! ;] good ol' Washington weather... people may not like it, but for me it suites me and my writing abilities, even tho i didn't write anything today haha... well today me and my mother were suppose to go to the bank to open up an account and everything but it didn't happen, cuz apparently the bank was closed cuz of a holiday.. SUCKY!!! but we're gonna do it tomorrow. But yeah we went out to eat instead and talked about dummies trying to make amends. I'm very sorry, but once you've disrespected me in a bad way, AND i stuck it out for you... there's no turning back, there is just no turning back... lol yeah and then we went to Teddy's new place and talked with her and Mike forever about the people lol... he is definitely family, and it's so comfy to be able to spend time with them and chill. I LOVE them!

dude, i smoked 5 ciggys today. Not good, at all!!! now my chest hurts for some odd reason (i wonder why) but a little vocal rest will do me good i guess.. lol no more smoking for me! plus i get bad breath, and it makes me sound like P!nk (what Teddy mentioned) haha, so im good with that. Lately i've been kinda stressed, wondering when im gonna get these tracks in- well i already know, im just anxious for everything to be done once in for all! im kinda nervous about starting the second album right away too... i know i have to keep it going, and im starting off with 6 complete band new songs, but structuring everything it very complicated i feel because i technically have a lot done so far and wonder how to place everything already, ya know? geez! lol

but all is well i guess, ...but kinda bummed, we had to take Raider & Jesse (Dogs) to the pound tonight, and it was very weird... they seemed alright when we left tho, said our last goodbyes & they just sniffed around, peed everywhere and we left... ;[ Julia cried on the way home, and that's when i smoked my last cig lol. Right now, im about to TRY and do some of my homework tonight for this week, but im about to do another Demo Album Cover shoot. which may be my last, and probably gonna be the one i choose, cuz i don't like the one i have now, and the other one with all the older photos... i love fresh and new, so im wondering if im prolly gonna stay up late again for that... if so- oh well.. ha

it's so cold too that im having to pee every 5 mins!! ever get that feeling?!?! URGH! besides drinking alcohol.. which is very similar LOL... bbbaaahhhh! omg, and mom's going to Germ in a week! what the hell?! me sittin back here wondering when im gonna go!!! and how it got here so fast! can't wait to see Nina, Mirko, and Rio!! anyways.. im prolly gonna get a job real soon!! doing something i think others would see as an oppertunity to take advantage of.. hmm, but i cannot wait to be making money to satisfy my image to get ready for Neen! she's gonna love the ideas! but all in do time, just like everything else!! i want it to come NOW tho!!! blah! ;]

patience child... patience...
jairemie

i find it to be alright.

hmm, im sitting here wondering what im gonna do next. i got a lot on my plate! let's list this!

1. Homework (English, German, Science, Arts, Math) for this week
   
2. Album Art (Pictures, Drawing, Managing, Arranging)
   
3. Rehearsal (Vocal Training)
   
4. Writing more music (Next Album)
5. Separating Tracks for each song (11 songs each/4-8 tracks a piece!)

this is soooo owch! and it stresses me out... lol im not hearing from any friends about going out or anything so im pretty much good for school! ;] that's the most important thing. Doing all this music and then having my school not fuctioning (the only downfall for it being online) i missed about 2 or 3 weeks... no biggie since it only began about 2 or 3 weeks ago lol. I HATE school... i don't encourage anyone to not go, but personaly.. yuck. lol

ooh and my album... i havn't the clue of what the hells it's gonna look like yet! so annoying! i know im gonna have a few selections to choose from but im hoping to come up with something by tomorrow so i could present everything to them. But if i am not ready, it is no big deal either.... haha the most important thing for now is getting my current album to them ASAP! so i could get freakin overseas!!!

hmm as far as new music goes... i havn't got around that much. I'm kinda waiting for the cold to come, and those what seems to be rare days when it rains just how i'd like it to. Where the skies are overcasted and the rain poors, and it's about the middle of the day kind of (well, when the kids aren't home) and i could just chill outside alone with a demo beat i made or guitar in hand to be able to write to... i know those moments happen... but that's when it's just right for me... for what im looking to do anyways; that puts me in the mood.

the separating of the tracks is a PAiN!!!!!!! lol i shoulda started it as soon as i got the PA in the house! but i was too busy discovering my new found abilities! lol but at the same time, when im sitting in front of the computer editing everything so that it's decent enough for them to hear & work with i get caught up in the moment anyways haha...

ahhh but anyways let's all let out a sigh and keep getting fatter (on my part anyways) and MAKE MUSiC!!! the next time around it won't be so stressful! lol gotta get these things together my way or it's not gonna work at all... and as soon as i get back on track it'll be smooth sailing! ;] WELP gotta go do those things all at random!! lol

suddenly i discover something new
jairemie