Caffine Free, Citrus Burst 2.1QT Bottle

back home. and i loved the stay... my mood is something right now, where i am agitated. Is that right? anyways... we really really had a great stay in Cali... i loved it soooo much, and my family twice as much! im really looking forward to going back, maybe doing some work there or something, but of course visiting the family. hmmm...

but now im back home with absolutely nothing to do. im about to check my school real quickly after this blog and then go to sleep... i don't wanna tho!!! ;[ lol earlier i made another grand ol shirt for my merch of which Kari & I are working together on. Everything's coming out great, and just in time for my album release. I have many different ideas that are in my head right now, and i gotta get them on paper. Haha, so much of this and im wondering if my head is gonna be on this merch thing forever and when my mind is gonna blow over with new songs for the next album.

mom was talking about how she got her plane tick to germany!!! so exciting! well... im saying that in spite of how it's Germany, and not how im NOT going ;/ lol. Me and my best friend of like 7-8 years are discussing getting a place in Seattle... im DOWN!!! so many oppertunities and stuff... i mean it's a much different atmosphere than being in LA or NY. i guess everyone would wanna know about our happenings over those places much rather than Seattle. but Seattle is such an "undercover" media spot if ya know what i mean... doesn't get much action as the rest but it still is one of the best cities, no? anyways yes me & Alex are down for the count... and hopefully soon enough. Since i have a job now...??? lol well, it's a job that i don't see money coming for a while, so im gonna have to get a side job for now.

im really looking forward to meeting new people and spending my life by myself nonetheless.. i know it's gonna be soooo different. A lot of people, while i was in school, told people around me i wasn't gonna make it. if only i herd those things directly....... but i see how it was, and they're not really saying it now! im making sure my stuff is straight! no time to fool around. We all know this! ....but soon enough i need to develop a story board for my single, im hoping to have a few more singles out, but that's business crap that i don't wanna worry about right now! haha.

Well, i been reconnecting with some friends lately. I REALLY get the feeling some people are trying to catch me pre-stardom, pshh shoot as if i can even say that YET lol... i need to save those words for when i really get out there. im really seeing who my friends are... the ones who try to latch on and those ones i could tolerate and stuff, im VERY glad that i got rid of the ones i knew myself, were no good. So Glad. like i said, i am really looking forward to seeing/meeting new people that come into myself, and feeling happy with the people i do now have in my life. *taking subconscience notes in my head for songs*. This needs to get off the ground. EVERYthing needs to get off the ground...

hmm, while i sit here staring at this Caffine Free, Citrus Burst Squirt 2.1QT bottle im trying to figure out what else to think of! soon enough i'll have something crazy to write about and actually be motivated to write about it. There hasn't been any "in the moment" moments lately for me, if ya know what i mean... lol being back im trying to get used to the mix of things, which sounds so retarded, but i got a little lost in what i was beginning to do. i wasn't really doing much besides moving which SUCKED, but now im really able to handle and take care of what i need to. whoooo!!! time to strengthen myself! bye now!

wow... ok...

dude, i am so tired right now!!! i was up all night doing some work on my single artwork. Im done, by the way, but i stayed up all night, then from there i had to go to my grandmother's house so that we could all be there to go to Seattle!!! so freakin much we did!!! & i totally drove all the way sleep deprived. very scary. lol i really felt drunk or something... glad i made it there and back safely. but i met with my new label! lol pshh only one person but that's good enough, we really feel good about them... & i'll most likly be with them for a year's time!

my album is gonna be released with them too!!! im so excited about it! my first single "Cry Diamonds" is up for release for the 29th or August!!! and with that the single along with a bonus track that is from the album will be up for purchase that same day after i perform them both... im still debating weather im gonna perform the bonus or not... but who knows... anyways. My mother is so excited about what is coming and so am i!!!! i cannot wait to do everything!!!! i wanna do it now! there is so many things happening, or is going to happen that im anxious to do!

we had some taco bell tonight and i had the best caramel apple epenada!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg, it was so good!!!! lol yeah, and we were riding around wasting gas talking about the current events. But now, my energy is so gone and soon as i am done writing this blog i will be right in my bed!!!! dreaming about love and happiness. ha, and currently watching The Nanny. i love this show!! ;] ... but yeah omg, you have no idea how tired i am... ALL DAY!!! so tired. yeah but i am so thankful for everything that's been happening lately. Things seem to now being pulling through after me deciting to move on from the dumb things in life.. ya know? yep

anyways i am off to bed! nothing that interesting today besides sleeping. that is pretty interesting but no consciencely- if i spelled that right.. lol hopefully i will have more feelings to express tomorrow. lol