it is now 2:41am and i am up once again... and prolly gonna stay up untill my newest song is done, which is yet to get outta my head into the computer & paper. I'm finally getting inspired from right to left, and i missed this feeling for a long time. just a minute ago it was a small commercial with a song on it that gave me a great idea... ha and my small journey to Taco Bell at this late hour as well. Not to mention that Taco Bell always runs out of stuff at the end of the day!! But all is well! im taking advantage of this VERY wide and large break! Christmas is almost here! in my mind i don't give about getting presents i just love that the family is here. Soon Mirko is coming and i've been forgetting about all of this nonsence going on lately and really honing in on my creative mind, or my "Alternative Mind" i should say. I get bombarded with loads of ideas at once that i just stop at nothing but create!!! ;]
a few days ago Kari came and i was so excited to see her and Noah!!! ;] i love love LOVE them!!! and her photography skills are amazing! it was such a cool time with all the different things we did and my small wardrobe which was all the more better thanks to Nina haha. lol i watched Psychic Kids & Paranormal State premiers last night and they were awesome! i finally found my favorite shows that i could talk about religiously! ha but iono i really feel good! enjoying my last moments of downtime, or what i want that to be anyways... to really get ready to open my mind and move forward in my music. I'm getting ready to dive into it and i don't see any road blocks... and the theme song playing in my head is the one that goes... "i could see clearly now, the rain is gone..." iono the title but i freakin love that song!!!! it just reminds me of the 60 or 70's or something!! which is my major influance right now too.
If it weren't for the beatles, michael jackson, james brown to name a few, i mean all of those 70's and below music and artist, i don't think there would be REAL music in this world and i look to it very more so. I write about real stuff, not the money, cars, blah blah blah crap... i mean the DEEP stuff...... that's what i wanna hear on the radio! i mean, shouldn't the music industry be about people actually MAKING it in music, and who have meaning? not where EVERY one wants to be an artist, make money, and write & sing about f**king every girl in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOO. that is NOT what music is!!! i mean look at Greatful Dead, Santigold, MGMT, Paramore, Christina Aguilera, Sia, M.I.A., Death Cab for Cutie... they actually have something to say. Some people may argue which of those do not see the underlining truth behind the music that they create. Everyone is so 'advertising' now. I just wish what i hear everywhere is not so much on the surface of things.
Those are some huge inspirations in my mind. The things that keep me up and actually moving forward. The industry will change. The world will change as well... could you see the world without music? i think not! i sware it's some kind of life source. Down to go-happy hippy music to death metal goth music! every one has a taste of it at some point! ;] but yeah, this is my creative mind talking up a storm. lol but what i am gonna do right now, is transfer all of my thoughts into song right about now, and hopefully i'll be alright when i don't sleep for longer than 2 or 3 hours... lol cuz i wanna be UP & inspired! especially if it's raining today... i love the rain, it gets my mind going. WELP! it's getting cold! and i need to get comfy to create this masterpiece! PEACE OUT!
If there is one thing i would want to change overnight about the world...
it is its music. That could put us all in a better place.
jairemie
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
waiting it out, and sitting here cold.
i can't remember what i was gonna talk about... But i had an amazing time at Christmas Spectacular! ;] it seems every year that goes by, people wanna jump RIGHT into the next holiday... it's kinda warming knowing that people actually care and wanna keep the warm spirit alive! It was so funny when mom, Nina, Derrick and Julia were describing their stage freight for me being up there! haha i was nervous before going on, but of course lost myself during the time, i always do... especially during performances like that, where it is nothing but a single instrument and my voice! I met a whole lot of people too!!!! all of them i could chill with forever! ;]
but now i sit- well actually lay here bored out of my mind, thinking about how conscience i am over not turning in my homework last week... oops!! majorly procrastinated! haha. i told myself today that i was gonna watch Julie & Julia but totally wooomped on that one and watched other crap instead... tomorrow maybe.. Im wanting more inspiration!!!!!!!!! i have all these tracks to write to and no mind for it... it all came to me at the start, but now all of a sudden i draw a blank! this never happens to me. But i come to think that there is just so many people in the house that i usually do my work extensively alone and junk like that! shizzle! but oh well it will happen soon... i was hoping this weather could boost my emotions a little... maybe a little soul-searching would do the trick... with that i mean finding people to date... and have those kinds of emotion... ahh who knows..
today i think im gonna clean my lil area, then make sure everything is going right. And at least try to get some inspiration out of this secluded emotional boundary that i do have now. haha i've decided im sticking to my hairstyle and i am just gonna make it more and more dramatic as time passes. It's the only variety choice i have at the moment! haha. other than that, lets hope i find something to do. Not smoking, or being lazy is killer. haha i was just beginning to have fun! but i pick love way more over that! hmm, what else? well, im very much wanting to get out of this house as you could probably sence. I always have a lot to think about at night, which is the best time for me to get away... i mentioned on my twitter how i need to put my "Remie" on, siting that i wish to be more intense and direct with my decisions, and at the same time not think about it as much! breaking the mold has always been one of my things, but in my personal life... i set up my natural ways with simplicity rather than optimism. Indeed... IT IS TIME TO CHANGE THAT!
i am noticing big change though... if one thing isn't moving along then is another... gotta keep patience! it's just like.... how to i keep occupied? im so confused, haha i mean i know im thinking about relationships but maybe im too scared of it! it's so crazy cuz like, i watch people go in and out of relationships my whole life, and i feel i know the ins and outs of them all... pretty intence, but for me, i see those things and i NEVER EVER want them to happen to me, i mean i even get the butterfly feeling in my stomach just thinking about it........ that's exactly what i want right now, someone by me at least. cuz i literaly ain't got nothing but thought, myself, words, and plain patience. No one knows exactly how i feel and that is the one thing i am lacking... but music is where i put it all regaurdless if anyone understands at all or not. where's that person in my life life... ya know? hmm... maybe some greater things are on it's way... time will tell..
please tell me stories with your touch
never fill my head with words
and don't blind me with love
hold me with love instead.
but now i sit- well actually lay here bored out of my mind, thinking about how conscience i am over not turning in my homework last week... oops!! majorly procrastinated! haha. i told myself today that i was gonna watch Julie & Julia but totally wooomped on that one and watched other crap instead... tomorrow maybe.. Im wanting more inspiration!!!!!!!!! i have all these tracks to write to and no mind for it... it all came to me at the start, but now all of a sudden i draw a blank! this never happens to me. But i come to think that there is just so many people in the house that i usually do my work extensively alone and junk like that! shizzle! but oh well it will happen soon... i was hoping this weather could boost my emotions a little... maybe a little soul-searching would do the trick... with that i mean finding people to date... and have those kinds of emotion... ahh who knows..
today i think im gonna clean my lil area, then make sure everything is going right. And at least try to get some inspiration out of this secluded emotional boundary that i do have now. haha i've decided im sticking to my hairstyle and i am just gonna make it more and more dramatic as time passes. It's the only variety choice i have at the moment! haha. other than that, lets hope i find something to do. Not smoking, or being lazy is killer. haha i was just beginning to have fun! but i pick love way more over that! hmm, what else? well, im very much wanting to get out of this house as you could probably sence. I always have a lot to think about at night, which is the best time for me to get away... i mentioned on my twitter how i need to put my "Remie" on, siting that i wish to be more intense and direct with my decisions, and at the same time not think about it as much! breaking the mold has always been one of my things, but in my personal life... i set up my natural ways with simplicity rather than optimism. Indeed... IT IS TIME TO CHANGE THAT!
i am noticing big change though... if one thing isn't moving along then is another... gotta keep patience! it's just like.... how to i keep occupied? im so confused, haha i mean i know im thinking about relationships but maybe im too scared of it! it's so crazy cuz like, i watch people go in and out of relationships my whole life, and i feel i know the ins and outs of them all... pretty intence, but for me, i see those things and i NEVER EVER want them to happen to me, i mean i even get the butterfly feeling in my stomach just thinking about it........ that's exactly what i want right now, someone by me at least. cuz i literaly ain't got nothing but thought, myself, words, and plain patience. No one knows exactly how i feel and that is the one thing i am lacking... but music is where i put it all regaurdless if anyone understands at all or not. where's that person in my life life... ya know? hmm... maybe some greater things are on it's way... time will tell..
please tell me stories with your touch
never fill my head with words
and don't blind me with love
hold me with love instead.
Monday, November 30, 2009
When I Think... The Weather Wants To Change
Here i am sitting again. I told myself not to get my hopes up so soon about everything... i know that i don't, but this one show i did. lol thank God it's not that big of a deal tho! I always seem to prey upon charity events and seem to be sucked in to perform at them which is absolutely amazing to me! I know as an artist i could lend my voice for a greater cause! Im so thankful to "accidentally" fall into these great things!
just a minute ago, grama and mom were up here talking about the issues and everything we're going through, now all alone im left to ponder it. I feel so hurt everytime we get into these kinds of situations! It's happened to my family for years. All i could do is sit back and watch everything unfold. I know that i could go change something for the extreme better but i havn't found that opening yet where i could just run for it! It's disheartening! my situation at the moment requires me to be the kid and be taken care of, many people would LOVE this especially the men that have entered our lives but i am getting sick and tired of it! time to live and grow on my own now. Time to make things happen!
school is a definite dragggggg lately. haha i've got absolutely nothing done in about 4 weeks i think. dude, i am taking care of that believe me. It's the only thing i have at the moment to keep me busy, but i absolutely hate it with a passion! I was talking with my G-ma about how she thinks im missing out on highschool... i am so over wanting to go, work, be a part of anything like that for a few years now. Im not trying to discourage anyone from not going, i just know i do not and will not go back to that anymore. Music is where is at, and i will let no one at all tell me otherwise. This month is one more day over and it seems as tho everything i was fighting for has frozen. Im really hoping that since Mirko will be back and everything he could be that other support to PUSH everything we want in one direction.
Something is missing. I have my album done, and nothing is happening. By now i think we would've had the album ready, had videos, promo, prime time, stuff like that but im stuck. By now, though, i should be writing songs like crazy... but i have nothing to work with! only have one song outta me which is "Father Figure"... lol maybe it should wait, iono... because i know that there is more to add to that song, and it's probably gonna take more than a year before my next album is done, but i must continue. Music is ME LIFE! ;] i get sidetracted all the time!!!! SHAKE THIS LOOSEEE!!!!
whoa, the weather totally changed this whole time i was writing this. Im connected to the weather! haha so gloomy outside! perfect for a song, the songs kinda like what Death Cab for Cutie, some of Paramore, Interpool (which Neen introduced me to ;]) ya know... i think the best way to discribe that really nice mood is the environment or "blue" feel you seen in the Twilight movies. lol that's the best way to discribe i think. Im in LOVE with that mood... it's pretty much indiscribable but that's exactly what i love about it! something of being alone in a sence, to think about things and stuff like that.
I am changing things this week. I've made the absolute disition. So many things need to change for me. I mean, i look heathy all the time, im showering! which is very good being that im at home all the damn time, and im actually getting dressed in the morning while having some coffee and doing my hair! GEEEZ!! completely ready for the day that isin't ready for me! aaaannnndddd IM, gonna change that. Everything needs to be n*sync! HAHA. you know what i mean. and then VERY soon enough i'll have something like this!
ya dig it?
jairemie
just a minute ago, grama and mom were up here talking about the issues and everything we're going through, now all alone im left to ponder it. I feel so hurt everytime we get into these kinds of situations! It's happened to my family for years. All i could do is sit back and watch everything unfold. I know that i could go change something for the extreme better but i havn't found that opening yet where i could just run for it! It's disheartening! my situation at the moment requires me to be the kid and be taken care of, many people would LOVE this especially the men that have entered our lives but i am getting sick and tired of it! time to live and grow on my own now. Time to make things happen!
school is a definite dragggggg lately. haha i've got absolutely nothing done in about 4 weeks i think. dude, i am taking care of that believe me. It's the only thing i have at the moment to keep me busy, but i absolutely hate it with a passion! I was talking with my G-ma about how she thinks im missing out on highschool... i am so over wanting to go, work, be a part of anything like that for a few years now. Im not trying to discourage anyone from not going, i just know i do not and will not go back to that anymore. Music is where is at, and i will let no one at all tell me otherwise. This month is one more day over and it seems as tho everything i was fighting for has frozen. Im really hoping that since Mirko will be back and everything he could be that other support to PUSH everything we want in one direction.
Something is missing. I have my album done, and nothing is happening. By now i think we would've had the album ready, had videos, promo, prime time, stuff like that but im stuck. By now, though, i should be writing songs like crazy... but i have nothing to work with! only have one song outta me which is "Father Figure"... lol maybe it should wait, iono... because i know that there is more to add to that song, and it's probably gonna take more than a year before my next album is done, but i must continue. Music is ME LIFE! ;] i get sidetracted all the time!!!! SHAKE THIS LOOSEEE!!!!
whoa, the weather totally changed this whole time i was writing this. Im connected to the weather! haha so gloomy outside! perfect for a song, the songs kinda like what Death Cab for Cutie, some of Paramore, Interpool (which Neen introduced me to ;]) ya know... i think the best way to discribe that really nice mood is the environment or "blue" feel you seen in the Twilight movies. lol that's the best way to discribe i think. Im in LOVE with that mood... it's pretty much indiscribable but that's exactly what i love about it! something of being alone in a sence, to think about things and stuff like that.
I am changing things this week. I've made the absolute disition. So many things need to change for me. I mean, i look heathy all the time, im showering! which is very good being that im at home all the damn time, and im actually getting dressed in the morning while having some coffee and doing my hair! GEEEZ!! completely ready for the day that isin't ready for me! aaaannnndddd IM, gonna change that. Everything needs to be n*sync! HAHA. you know what i mean. and then VERY soon enough i'll have something like this!
ya dig it?
jairemie
Friday, November 20, 2009
"light shines above me, darkness sheds to light"
the best part about waking in the wayyy AM (2:30am) is being able to come outside when everyone's asleep and sit to feel a unanticipated warm breezy wind storm-like environment. This makes me happy... to be able to be alone with this kind of weather, or these kinds of weathers i should say (i love overcast too!). this is where i get my most creative mind. Aside from not having everything i need to produce everything, im trying my best to keep it current in my head; keep it playin ya know?
This is weird... im hearing Geese in the distance...... at 2:55am? hmm lol. I also smell as if someone left a fire to burn. That campfire smell!!! LOVE iT! since when did my mood become part of the world? oh yeah and earlier me and mom were sitting outside, and i was shooting a little for the video, with a ciggy shot! ha and then i we went in but i sware i left em outside. They were in a plastic bag and i think the wind took them away ;[. So i think im gonna go to the smoke shop today haha! this time i'll get a cigar too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah, anyways... you now know that i have issues with my label and obviously im not getting anywhere with that. I really wanna release everything myself, but all im hearing is blah blah blah from there about nonsence or them doudging everything! URGH. but it's this step by step thing that we're doing... it's gonna better everything. dude, i got this letter in the mail saying i would get kicked out of school if i don't "comply" consistantly within 3 months. If i get kicked out... i sware i will be out completely. But now i know i can't mess up for 3 months haha.
i've been thinking over and over about having someone in my life. I mean, just the thought of having someone? iono, i've been having dreams here and there about friends or random people i've never met who i've swore i've known forever haha. Then i wake up and find myself alone (so emo) lol no but it doesn't nessasarily effect me the way that i may thought it would. I'm just craving something TOTALLY new. as you can see i have already changed my hair ---------------------------------------------------->>
but im needing something else!!!! economy is infectious! and i hate it! i should not happen! lol ugh and today is school time and im not stoping at nothing except getting it done! i can't afford to not have school (well, yes i can) but iono i like my school computer! lol. See... just this moment i had a very nice beat in my head ready to lay down. unfortunately i have nothing to pull it out with... thus making it hard to make a song. ahh it's getting a little cold and i think im gonna go back to sleep until everyone starts waking up, cuz i can't be tired today!!
what's the opposite of relaxing on a beach in a chair under the sun,
but with the same feeling of happiness and/or relaxation?
jairemie
This is weird... im hearing Geese in the distance...... at 2:55am? hmm lol. I also smell as if someone left a fire to burn. That campfire smell!!! LOVE iT! since when did my mood become part of the world? oh yeah and earlier me and mom were sitting outside, and i was shooting a little for the video, with a ciggy shot! ha and then i we went in but i sware i left em outside. They were in a plastic bag and i think the wind took them away ;[. So i think im gonna go to the smoke shop today haha! this time i'll get a cigar too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah, anyways... you now know that i have issues with my label and obviously im not getting anywhere with that. I really wanna release everything myself, but all im hearing is blah blah blah from there about nonsence or them doudging everything! URGH. but it's this step by step thing that we're doing... it's gonna better everything. dude, i got this letter in the mail saying i would get kicked out of school if i don't "comply" consistantly within 3 months. If i get kicked out... i sware i will be out completely. But now i know i can't mess up for 3 months haha.
i've been thinking over and over about having someone in my life. I mean, just the thought of having someone? iono, i've been having dreams here and there about friends or random people i've never met who i've swore i've known forever haha. Then i wake up and find myself alone (so emo) lol no but it doesn't nessasarily effect me the way that i may thought it would. I'm just craving something TOTALLY new. as you can see i have already changed my hair ---------------------------------------------------->>
but im needing something else!!!! economy is infectious! and i hate it! i should not happen! lol ugh and today is school time and im not stoping at nothing except getting it done! i can't afford to not have school (well, yes i can) but iono i like my school computer! lol. See... just this moment i had a very nice beat in my head ready to lay down. unfortunately i have nothing to pull it out with... thus making it hard to make a song. ahh it's getting a little cold and i think im gonna go back to sleep until everyone starts waking up, cuz i can't be tired today!!
what's the opposite of relaxing on a beach in a chair under the sun,
but with the same feeling of happiness and/or relaxation?
jairemie
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Ice Chamber
it speaks for itself... everything is in a standstill and is frozen. I've been getting inspired here and there to write different things for this new album. It's gonna take a long process for the most part and i know that. I'm just getting more excited on my own about the hidden work im attempting to keep secret for as long as i could... from my family and especially from everyone else ;]
i need a studio tho... and the problems with my label is that it's pretty much unavailable. Pshh, not my style. lol well i got my Cambridge notebook with all of my personal songs that im making storing or producing! im anxious to fix my computer and just get started. Every song that im coming across are giving me these greatest ideas... ranging from Rock to R&B to just other things. lol honestly the songs im letting out right now are more ballady and stuff like that. I'm a little surprized, because that's how intentionally i wanted it.
I think i could stick with piano and guitar songs for a while until everything else is falling into place. Iono, are you ready to move forward? i am, it just has to happen! anyways, on another note; i been busy figuring out what we're gonna do with this album and when it's REALLY coming!!!! i know it's gonna be next year! i mean, it's gotta be. Everything's getting arranged i guess over here. Im trying to push a video for a song off of the album for everyone to see online... then follow up with my first single!
I saw 2012 yesterday... and it's pretty intense. It kinda makes you think, but iono personally i keep wondering if i could handle everything? lol dude, DON'T think about it!!!! sdfk;jjghskxfh... i don't wanna! yeah yeah...
break the ice!
jairemie
i need a studio tho... and the problems with my label is that it's pretty much unavailable. Pshh, not my style. lol well i got my Cambridge notebook with all of my personal songs that im making storing or producing! im anxious to fix my computer and just get started. Every song that im coming across are giving me these greatest ideas... ranging from Rock to R&B to just other things. lol honestly the songs im letting out right now are more ballady and stuff like that. I'm a little surprized, because that's how intentionally i wanted it.
I think i could stick with piano and guitar songs for a while until everything else is falling into place. Iono, are you ready to move forward? i am, it just has to happen! anyways, on another note; i been busy figuring out what we're gonna do with this album and when it's REALLY coming!!!! i know it's gonna be next year! i mean, it's gotta be. Everything's getting arranged i guess over here. Im trying to push a video for a song off of the album for everyone to see online... then follow up with my first single!
I saw 2012 yesterday... and it's pretty intense. It kinda makes you think, but iono personally i keep wondering if i could handle everything? lol dude, DON'T think about it!!!! sdfk;jjghskxfh... i don't wanna! yeah yeah...
break the ice!
jairemie
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Through The Looking Glass
things are still not moving and im seeming to be growing impatient. I have a whole bunch to write about tho... but it doesn't help that my main music computer wants to die out on me... well, the visual at least. I'm REALLY hoping everything will move forward once family gets here..... i've noticed they are my greatest strengths! i mean besides very close friends, unfortunately to name a few (Alex, Joe, KC, Sophie, Kierra, Kat, Mary, Shauntae) i mean those are the ones who i could remain in contact and skip out like 328975532 days until the next time. Iono what it is, but it's all good to me! i mean those are like- IT! my lucky 8 right? lol anyways...
yes, i am getting tired of feeling like im at the end of the school year with absolutely nothing what-so-ever to do in the middle of Fall. This ain't right! so what im doing now is building up for my next album. I have quite a few songs to lay down which i might consider that, but these new ones are heartfelt! & i just wanna make it right and meaningful. This is totally gonna be an album of what i feel at the moment and pretty deep nonetheless from ballad type songs to club hits, i wanna have it all but share the message as well. I already have the name ready. ((FP)) cannot say yet! ready ready ready to go!
but iono today im feeling refreshed! last night i had to make up my mind, and finally decided that this person in my life has got to go. I can't believe that i know better than that! it's a great relization! i kinda slept all day but i sure needed it! and i mean what else can i do since i have a problem on my hands where it involves my music!!!! URGH! but everything besides the fact, i picked my bro and sis up from school and we went out to get some coffee, on my lovely card haha.. didn't know that i was gonna be so cool about all these responsibilities, i grew up quickly.
iono... hopefully you could get the raw version of "Father Figure" i intended to use on 'FP'. It really means a lot, and hopefully i could capture everything i want to produce for it so everyone could feel the vibe and relate and stuff. But what do you call it when you're at home for large amounts of times and you really can't get out anywhere... i mean yeah it's cool to go out and pick the kids up and what not, but i REALLY want to travel and make this album bigger than it is (which the label is holding me back from). I mean, that's the main passion of mine, i wanna be able to share my music with everyone who has ears and are willing to listen, not play it over and over constantly in my own household. i am getting no where! and fast!
it's good tho that we're planning things a head and at least trying to get things done around what im obligated for i guess, which isn't really anything... but like i keep telling myself, i need to move on more and more and it will get better. It has to get better, i know that once im release from all this nonsence and i stop making nonsence for myself, it is all going to get better. but hmm, now what to do??? do homework, then watch a movie. oh geez what a life! ERR! maybe i'll go practice my performance too. haha thanx for baring with me at least and everything that is holding me back!!! that just gives me a great idea for an intense song! WHOO HOO!!!
at least i have the lazy time now to look through the looking glass to see my bright future.
jairemie
yes, i am getting tired of feeling like im at the end of the school year with absolutely nothing what-so-ever to do in the middle of Fall. This ain't right! so what im doing now is building up for my next album. I have quite a few songs to lay down which i might consider that, but these new ones are heartfelt! & i just wanna make it right and meaningful. This is totally gonna be an album of what i feel at the moment and pretty deep nonetheless from ballad type songs to club hits, i wanna have it all but share the message as well. I already have the name ready. ((FP)) cannot say yet! ready ready ready to go!
but iono today im feeling refreshed! last night i had to make up my mind, and finally decided that this person in my life has got to go. I can't believe that i know better than that! it's a great relization! i kinda slept all day but i sure needed it! and i mean what else can i do since i have a problem on my hands where it involves my music!!!! URGH! but everything besides the fact, i picked my bro and sis up from school and we went out to get some coffee, on my lovely card haha.. didn't know that i was gonna be so cool about all these responsibilities, i grew up quickly.
iono... hopefully you could get the raw version of "Father Figure" i intended to use on 'FP'. It really means a lot, and hopefully i could capture everything i want to produce for it so everyone could feel the vibe and relate and stuff. But what do you call it when you're at home for large amounts of times and you really can't get out anywhere... i mean yeah it's cool to go out and pick the kids up and what not, but i REALLY want to travel and make this album bigger than it is (which the label is holding me back from). I mean, that's the main passion of mine, i wanna be able to share my music with everyone who has ears and are willing to listen, not play it over and over constantly in my own household. i am getting no where! and fast!
it's good tho that we're planning things a head and at least trying to get things done around what im obligated for i guess, which isn't really anything... but like i keep telling myself, i need to move on more and more and it will get better. It has to get better, i know that once im release from all this nonsence and i stop making nonsence for myself, it is all going to get better. but hmm, now what to do??? do homework, then watch a movie. oh geez what a life! ERR! maybe i'll go practice my performance too. haha thanx for baring with me at least and everything that is holding me back!!! that just gives me a great idea for an intense song! WHOO HOO!!!
at least i have the lazy time now to look through the looking glass to see my bright future.
jairemie
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Mental Immunity
i would not call what others would call "stress" now... because i've really had my ups and downs lately, just a little bit, all the time. lol So my feel on things are taking a turn. If it were not for my family i don't have no idea what kinda state of mind i'd be in right now. Recently, we've looked into where im at as far as records being released and distribution nonsence, ya know stuff that didn't make sence to me at all a long time ago. Everything comes in, in such short notice but i learn awfully quickly. THINGS ARE NOT GETTING DONE. so i've decided to take it in my own hands and let me and my family take care of things. It's the only way i'll get anywhere at all in time.
So as you know, NOV. 23 was supposedly my release date for 'Jairemie Alexander' in the UK right? well distribution is not there. Then on DEC. 12 the release in US. nope! never gonna happen, not at the rate this is going at all. I was going to have a 12 day tour for the album "low budget" i may add to it's release... there is no way you're gonna here about it then! i am getting promised so many things as well, like we're gonna have it here and there by this time or whatever and people will get to hear it before it comes out (in other words, "i will get you the deal you really need")... luckly i don't have anything you could hear past Cry Diamonds, i mean it ruins everything... and it's suppose to be low budget?! under the years agreement that we dealt for, No way. No How. my end of the bargain is there... i just have a very bad agreement. Trust me the album WILL drop and it's only a matter of time. We are just set soooo back from this, when this shoulda been taken care of a very long time ago.
Things will still happen as we get this predicament sorted out, this is my side project to do. We're looking at putting the video to "Cry Diamonds" up fairly soon, but knowing this situation we might have to wait a while... no problem tho. i need to re-evaluate everything anyways ;] and possibly start on my next album as well. (slowly now...) URGH! Congradulations on Rihanna and Lady GaGa for their releases on the 23rd i hear! ;]. Hopefully soon tho, the timing really has to be right for this. Like i mentioned before, this winter is lame for releases!! But going into the new year is all the better! i have to make some decitions! lol but until then i am STILL working! and this is gonna get done! oh and i should be putting another DISCREET up soon, i know i've been slacking. But i hate when there are mistakes where there shouldn't be.. lol bye now!
i think at this point, im ready to change the face of some part of the world
jairemie
So as you know, NOV. 23 was supposedly my release date for 'Jairemie Alexander' in the UK right? well distribution is not there. Then on DEC. 12 the release in US. nope! never gonna happen, not at the rate this is going at all. I was going to have a 12 day tour for the album "low budget" i may add to it's release... there is no way you're gonna here about it then! i am getting promised so many things as well, like we're gonna have it here and there by this time or whatever and people will get to hear it before it comes out (in other words, "i will get you the deal you really need")... luckly i don't have anything you could hear past Cry Diamonds, i mean it ruins everything... and it's suppose to be low budget?! under the years agreement that we dealt for, No way. No How. my end of the bargain is there... i just have a very bad agreement. Trust me the album WILL drop and it's only a matter of time. We are just set soooo back from this, when this shoulda been taken care of a very long time ago.
Things will still happen as we get this predicament sorted out, this is my side project to do. We're looking at putting the video to "Cry Diamonds" up fairly soon, but knowing this situation we might have to wait a while... no problem tho. i need to re-evaluate everything anyways ;] and possibly start on my next album as well. (slowly now...) URGH! Congradulations on Rihanna and Lady GaGa for their releases on the 23rd i hear! ;]. Hopefully soon tho, the timing really has to be right for this. Like i mentioned before, this winter is lame for releases!! But going into the new year is all the better! i have to make some decitions! lol but until then i am STILL working! and this is gonna get done! oh and i should be putting another DISCREET up soon, i know i've been slacking. But i hate when there are mistakes where there shouldn't be.. lol bye now!
i think at this point, im ready to change the face of some part of the world
jairemie
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Stresses Of Life.
this week is so intense... What have i gotten myself into? lol this morning i got everything going for my "Cry Diamonds" shoot which takes place shooting at the end of November and im excited! well, im excited to shoot that actual day when i know i've decided what i decided. But everything else i have to get ready and it's crazy, just because there's a show today and my voice is deciding to stray away from me a little which AiN'T cool lol. Hmm and knowing management is elsewhere when i have to take care of Cry Diamonds- DUDE!!!! ahh.
haha but im good, taking it day by day and getting things ready ready READY! uh but what's happened? well i cannot believe everything! the other day i sat down with "the people" and went over decisions and things... over all i guess it was my decision, and we went with going what we had originally planned like 238954 times before haha. And now, everything is just lifting off, overviewing everything and getting things prepped in a matter of days and months; it's crazy! Thanks to this weather also, im getting pretty creative and coming up with some ideas, not any i could pin-point but they're coming along...
dude, it is so hard to consider (already) what you're gonna do beforehand on the NEEEXXXTTT album! wwwhhhhaaatttt??? lol ;] but i guess im ok, cuz this one's already done! hehe.....
im amazed at some of these people who are willing to contribute different things at this time of year.. i mean, it's very mellow this time and it's just perfect eh? to create a new album! ALL winter!
haha the thing that annoyed me today was Dexter [the dog] whom has bitten me upon my nose for me blowing in his face... i guess i deserved it after many many many times of blasting his face with carbon dioxide (...right?) lol ergh, what am i gonna do! lol uh, but now im just chillin waiting for this show to arrive, vox resting, and at least "trying" to do homework- omg, i HATE it! ...OH!!! and in other news, one of my best friends is having her first baby in November following beautiful my cousins birthday. And she wants me to name him! chyeah! ;] im excited for her! and i can't wait to have my baby fix! haha
anyways i need to get back to gazing at the beautiful fall setting outside and trying to get my energy back to get the dumb homework done... as well as thinking about going to the store to buy some pumpkin pie... that sounds so good right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;]
when the sun goes down, and the clouds fall upon us in the morning
all the things fall could represent, i juuuusssttt love it!!
jairemie
haha but im good, taking it day by day and getting things ready ready READY! uh but what's happened? well i cannot believe everything! the other day i sat down with "the people" and went over decisions and things... over all i guess it was my decision, and we went with going what we had originally planned like 238954 times before haha. And now, everything is just lifting off, overviewing everything and getting things prepped in a matter of days and months; it's crazy! Thanks to this weather also, im getting pretty creative and coming up with some ideas, not any i could pin-point but they're coming along...
dude, it is so hard to consider (already) what you're gonna do beforehand on the NEEEXXXTTT album! wwwhhhhaaatttt??? lol ;] but i guess im ok, cuz this one's already done! hehe.....
im amazed at some of these people who are willing to contribute different things at this time of year.. i mean, it's very mellow this time and it's just perfect eh? to create a new album! ALL winter!
haha the thing that annoyed me today was Dexter [the dog] whom has bitten me upon my nose for me blowing in his face... i guess i deserved it after many many many times of blasting his face with carbon dioxide (...right?) lol ergh, what am i gonna do! lol uh, but now im just chillin waiting for this show to arrive, vox resting, and at least "trying" to do homework- omg, i HATE it! ...OH!!! and in other news, one of my best friends is having her first baby in November following beautiful my cousins birthday. And she wants me to name him! chyeah! ;] im excited for her! and i can't wait to have my baby fix! haha
anyways i need to get back to gazing at the beautiful fall setting outside and trying to get my energy back to get the dumb homework done... as well as thinking about going to the store to buy some pumpkin pie... that sounds so good right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;]
when the sun goes down, and the clouds fall upon us in the morning
all the things fall could represent, i juuuusssttt love it!!
jairemie
Monday, October 12, 2009
Patience Child...
wow, what a day! my favorite weather was constant all today! ;] good ol' Washington weather... people may not like it, but for me it suites me and my writing abilities, even tho i didn't write anything today haha... well today me and my mother were suppose to go to the bank to open up an account and everything but it didn't happen, cuz apparently the bank was closed cuz of a holiday.. SUCKY!!! but we're gonna do it tomorrow. But yeah we went out to eat instead and talked about dummies trying to make amends. I'm very sorry, but once you've disrespected me in a bad way, AND i stuck it out for you... there's no turning back, there is just no turning back... lol yeah and then we went to Teddy's new place and talked with her and Mike forever about the people lol... he is definitely family, and it's so comfy to be able to spend time with them and chill. I LOVE them!
dude, i smoked 5 ciggys today. Not good, at all!!! now my chest hurts for some odd reason (i wonder why) but a little vocal rest will do me good i guess.. lol no more smoking for me! plus i get bad breath, and it makes me sound like P!nk (what Teddy mentioned) haha, so im good with that. Lately i've been kinda stressed, wondering when im gonna get these tracks in- well i already know, im just anxious for everything to be done once in for all! im kinda nervous about starting the second album right away too... i know i have to keep it going, and im starting off with 6 complete band new songs, but structuring everything it very complicated i feel because i technically have a lot done so far and wonder how to place everything already, ya know? geez! lol
but all is well i guess, ...but kinda bummed, we had to take Raider & Jesse (Dogs) to the pound tonight, and it was very weird... they seemed alright when we left tho, said our last goodbyes & they just sniffed around, peed everywhere and we left... ;[ Julia cried on the way home, and that's when i smoked my last cig lol. Right now, im about to TRY and do some of my homework tonight for this week, but im about to do another Demo Album Cover shoot. which may be my last, and probably gonna be the one i choose, cuz i don't like the one i have now, and the other one with all the older photos... i love fresh and new, so im wondering if im prolly gonna stay up late again for that... if so- oh well.. ha
it's so cold too that im having to pee every 5 mins!! ever get that feeling?!?! URGH! besides drinking alcohol.. which is very similar LOL... bbbaaahhhh! omg, and mom's going to Germ in a week! what the hell?! me sittin back here wondering when im gonna go!!! and how it got here so fast! can't wait to see Nina, Mirko, and Rio!! anyways.. im prolly gonna get a job real soon!! doing something i think others would see as an oppertunity to take advantage of.. hmm, but i cannot wait to be making money to satisfy my image to get ready for Neen! she's gonna love the ideas! but all in do time, just like everything else!! i want it to come NOW tho!!! blah! ;]
patience child... patience...
jairemie
dude, i smoked 5 ciggys today. Not good, at all!!! now my chest hurts for some odd reason (i wonder why) but a little vocal rest will do me good i guess.. lol no more smoking for me! plus i get bad breath, and it makes me sound like P!nk (what Teddy mentioned) haha, so im good with that. Lately i've been kinda stressed, wondering when im gonna get these tracks in- well i already know, im just anxious for everything to be done once in for all! im kinda nervous about starting the second album right away too... i know i have to keep it going, and im starting off with 6 complete band new songs, but structuring everything it very complicated i feel because i technically have a lot done so far and wonder how to place everything already, ya know? geez! lol
but all is well i guess, ...but kinda bummed, we had to take Raider & Jesse (Dogs) to the pound tonight, and it was very weird... they seemed alright when we left tho, said our last goodbyes & they just sniffed around, peed everywhere and we left... ;[ Julia cried on the way home, and that's when i smoked my last cig lol. Right now, im about to TRY and do some of my homework tonight for this week, but im about to do another Demo Album Cover shoot. which may be my last, and probably gonna be the one i choose, cuz i don't like the one i have now, and the other one with all the older photos... i love fresh and new, so im wondering if im prolly gonna stay up late again for that... if so- oh well.. ha
it's so cold too that im having to pee every 5 mins!! ever get that feeling?!?! URGH! besides drinking alcohol.. which is very similar LOL... bbbaaahhhh! omg, and mom's going to Germ in a week! what the hell?! me sittin back here wondering when im gonna go!!! and how it got here so fast! can't wait to see Nina, Mirko, and Rio!! anyways.. im prolly gonna get a job real soon!! doing something i think others would see as an oppertunity to take advantage of.. hmm, but i cannot wait to be making money to satisfy my image to get ready for Neen! she's gonna love the ideas! but all in do time, just like everything else!! i want it to come NOW tho!!! blah! ;]
patience child... patience...
jairemie
Saturday, October 3, 2009
i find it to be alright.
hmm, im sitting here wondering what im gonna do next. i got a lot on my plate! let's list this!
ooh and my album... i havn't the clue of what the hells it's gonna look like yet! so annoying! i know im gonna have a few selections to choose from but im hoping to come up with something by tomorrow so i could present everything to them. But if i am not ready, it is no big deal either.... haha the most important thing for now is getting my current album to them ASAP! so i could get freakin overseas!!!
hmm as far as new music goes... i havn't got around that much. I'm kinda waiting for the cold to come, and those what seems to be rare days when it rains just how i'd like it to. Where the skies are overcasted and the rain poors, and it's about the middle of the day kind of (well, when the kids aren't home) and i could just chill outside alone with a demo beat i made or guitar in hand to be able to write to... i know those moments happen... but that's when it's just right for me... for what im looking to do anyways; that puts me in the mood.
the separating of the tracks is a PAiN!!!!!!! lol i shoulda started it as soon as i got the PA in the house! but i was too busy discovering my new found abilities! lol but at the same time, when im sitting in front of the computer editing everything so that it's decent enough for them to hear & work with i get caught up in the moment anyways haha...
ahhh but anyways let's all let out a sigh and keep getting fatter (on my part anyways) and MAKE MUSiC!!! the next time around it won't be so stressful! lol gotta get these things together my way or it's not gonna work at all... and as soon as i get back on track it'll be smooth sailing! ;] WELP gotta go do those things all at random!! lol
suddenly i discover something new
jairemie
- Homework (English, German, Science, Arts, Math) for this week
- Album Art (Pictures, Drawing, Managing, Arranging)
- Rehearsal (Vocal Training)
- Writing more music (Next Album)
- Separating Tracks for each song (11 songs each/4-8 tracks a piece!)
ooh and my album... i havn't the clue of what the hells it's gonna look like yet! so annoying! i know im gonna have a few selections to choose from but im hoping to come up with something by tomorrow so i could present everything to them. But if i am not ready, it is no big deal either.... haha the most important thing for now is getting my current album to them ASAP! so i could get freakin overseas!!!
hmm as far as new music goes... i havn't got around that much. I'm kinda waiting for the cold to come, and those what seems to be rare days when it rains just how i'd like it to. Where the skies are overcasted and the rain poors, and it's about the middle of the day kind of (well, when the kids aren't home) and i could just chill outside alone with a demo beat i made or guitar in hand to be able to write to... i know those moments happen... but that's when it's just right for me... for what im looking to do anyways; that puts me in the mood.
the separating of the tracks is a PAiN!!!!!!! lol i shoulda started it as soon as i got the PA in the house! but i was too busy discovering my new found abilities! lol but at the same time, when im sitting in front of the computer editing everything so that it's decent enough for them to hear & work with i get caught up in the moment anyways haha...
ahhh but anyways let's all let out a sigh and keep getting fatter (on my part anyways) and MAKE MUSiC!!! the next time around it won't be so stressful! lol gotta get these things together my way or it's not gonna work at all... and as soon as i get back on track it'll be smooth sailing! ;] WELP gotta go do those things all at random!! lol
suddenly i discover something new
jairemie
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Got something to say... to... YOU! (Indirectly) ;]
it was an insane show yesterday. I watched this one comic (;[ iono her name right now) and a headliner Debbie Wooten perform. I had the opportunity to open for them both! ;] and sang "Cry Diamonds", "The Rain" and "Shout It Out". lol it was a little awkward for me, because how weird is it to sing for a comedy audience? haha no but it was so cool. And now it is exactly 1:12am, and i am tired as hell! iono why because i totally slept until 3pm for the show... but i am fighting to finish this blog!!! lol
im so excited about what is coming... im just sitting back and watching it all unfold. The only thing i need to control is my school. I been falling behind, like i said before, missing some contracts and everything. UGH! that's the only stressful thing that's goin along on my part. It seems everything else is just falling as is though which is delightfully good... Tomorrow is the D.A.S.H. benifit performance, and im excited to perform for the kids... hoping to get others inspired and to support the talents that come into their program!
ummmm... well i enjoy hearing what this "self-proclaimed" rapper/artist has to say about me because i called him out in one word, which was "disrespectful" for saying the things he was saying to my mother as a manager both directly and indirectly, and all of that nonsence. Now he is going around saying he wants to squash every artist in the city; referance to me obviously, and he's the best rapper...... ugh let me tell you something. I am no rapper... we are completely different. Get over yourself!! we will never compare, point bahhhh-lank! lol hmm and then going on about making a dissing song... aww im pretty sure he's been waiting to do something like this for a long time... cuz a real rapper would have a real diss song about someone huh? dummie.
people like this i cannot wait to forget all about. and that's beginning to happen. heck i'll even make a diss track myself! i'll just wip it up in 10min and post as a demo on my MySpace... how's that? oh the glory you would have if i created a masterpiece about you... too bad that's not gonna happen. You do not deserve any kind of sympathy from me. neg. or pos. sssooorrryyyy wannade. HA! moving on... hoping to have another episode of Discreet on the 30th. Fill you in on my boredome i guess haha, my stresses of school, travels and everything that i just talked about. Haha i can't wait for you to see me in the studio recording and me and my WONDERFUL Crew making indirect speeches!! ;]
2 performances in a row this weekend ;] i got my groove back! i really gotta get on a sleep schedule, but at the same time, will i really need it for when i tour?! might as well get used to it now i guess... i really gotta get some homework done too... hmm i just might bring up my printer to do it now. If it weren't so damn COLD in this house! (this is meaning we don't have to pay that much for the electric! whoop!) im getting my shit together. But the prob is im going in and out of the "zone". Like, now im thinking about it with a slightly tiny burst of adrenalin, then nothing at all the next sec- like now. lol oh well ULTiMATE KiCK! ;] i wanna watch Hot Rod now ;]]]]]]
i stop to think of it. we just can't even imagine how great we're gonna be.
jairemie
im so excited about what is coming... im just sitting back and watching it all unfold. The only thing i need to control is my school. I been falling behind, like i said before, missing some contracts and everything. UGH! that's the only stressful thing that's goin along on my part. It seems everything else is just falling as is though which is delightfully good... Tomorrow is the D.A.S.H. benifit performance, and im excited to perform for the kids... hoping to get others inspired and to support the talents that come into their program!
ummmm... well i enjoy hearing what this "self-proclaimed" rapper/artist has to say about me because i called him out in one word, which was "disrespectful" for saying the things he was saying to my mother as a manager both directly and indirectly, and all of that nonsence. Now he is going around saying he wants to squash every artist in the city; referance to me obviously, and he's the best rapper...... ugh let me tell you something. I am no rapper... we are completely different. Get over yourself!! we will never compare, point bahhhh-lank! lol hmm and then going on about making a dissing song... aww im pretty sure he's been waiting to do something like this for a long time... cuz a real rapper would have a real diss song about someone huh? dummie.
people like this i cannot wait to forget all about. and that's beginning to happen. heck i'll even make a diss track myself! i'll just wip it up in 10min and post as a demo on my MySpace... how's that? oh the glory you would have if i created a masterpiece about you... too bad that's not gonna happen. You do not deserve any kind of sympathy from me. neg. or pos. sssooorrryyyy wannade. HA! moving on... hoping to have another episode of Discreet on the 30th. Fill you in on my boredome i guess haha, my stresses of school, travels and everything that i just talked about. Haha i can't wait for you to see me in the studio recording and me and my WONDERFUL Crew making indirect speeches!! ;]
2 performances in a row this weekend ;] i got my groove back! i really gotta get on a sleep schedule, but at the same time, will i really need it for when i tour?! might as well get used to it now i guess... i really gotta get some homework done too... hmm i just might bring up my printer to do it now. If it weren't so damn COLD in this house! (this is meaning we don't have to pay that much for the electric! whoop!) im getting my shit together. But the prob is im going in and out of the "zone". Like, now im thinking about it with a slightly tiny burst of adrenalin, then nothing at all the next sec- like now. lol oh well ULTiMATE KiCK! ;] i wanna watch Hot Rod now ;]]]]]]
i stop to think of it. we just can't even imagine how great we're gonna be.
jairemie
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Making it My own.
Discreet started yesterday, and im hoping to have enough footage for next week! lol but it's so great right now... im just chilling outside right now listening to the birds and watching the sun hide behind the clouds ever so often. earlier today i had lunch with my A&R and it was so great!!! i ordered a Patty Melt, but it wasn't like the patty melt i had with Kaycee when we went to Idaho... nothing at ALL! lol im on vocal rest right now for my own sake preparing for some last minute recording of my album... then later we ship it to Germany for its release! lol i have a EURO Manager now... pshh i think he was already one from the start! and im so excited to do these many things as soon as possible.
i been getting a lot of song ideas in my head bouncing around for the start of my next album which you'll prolly see in Discreet. Oh yeah! and im gonna start working at Guitar Center too. DETERMiNATiON! ..all this stuff going on with other "so-called" artist is stupid. People thing they're really greater than other people... i don't bother with that kind of nonsence, especially when they're coming at my family the way they do, and also my record label!! URGH! already conflict! with people who have the hugest heads on Earth!!!!! anyways... there's more friends to be made in this industry that help one another out big time, in a bigger way anyways!!! i've always thought, it's about the music not about higher presentation!! i could save that for later when i become a rolemodel. Cars, Money, Sex... that's not all there is to talk about.
annnnddd i've come to the conclution! ;] im happy first my first single(s)! 'Cry Diamonds', along with the second or "sub" single, 'The Rain' ...exciting! and i can't wait to introduce my second single i should say! i guess everything falls into place when you let it... and in God's hands. Not everything has to go one route. I mean, look... i got this far by myself huh? im just too excited to show everyone what's up and what's next! so many things to do in a window of time ;] WHOOP!
"keep your feet on the ground, when your head's in the clouds..." - Paramore
jairemie
i been getting a lot of song ideas in my head bouncing around for the start of my next album which you'll prolly see in Discreet. Oh yeah! and im gonna start working at Guitar Center too. DETERMiNATiON! ..all this stuff going on with other "so-called" artist is stupid. People thing they're really greater than other people... i don't bother with that kind of nonsence, especially when they're coming at my family the way they do, and also my record label!! URGH! already conflict! with people who have the hugest heads on Earth!!!!! anyways... there's more friends to be made in this industry that help one another out big time, in a bigger way anyways!!! i've always thought, it's about the music not about higher presentation!! i could save that for later when i become a rolemodel. Cars, Money, Sex... that's not all there is to talk about.
annnnddd i've come to the conclution! ;] im happy first my first single(s)! 'Cry Diamonds', along with the second or "sub" single, 'The Rain' ...exciting! and i can't wait to introduce my second single i should say! i guess everything falls into place when you let it... and in God's hands. Not everything has to go one route. I mean, look... i got this far by myself huh? im just too excited to show everyone what's up and what's next! so many things to do in a window of time ;] WHOOP!
"keep your feet on the ground, when your head's in the clouds..." - Paramore
jairemie
Monday, September 21, 2009
Love Interest & What's Happening
today i had nothing to do... lol i slept all day and woke at like 1:20pm? aww well, i didn't really need to do anything today besides sleep anyways. i had a really nice dream last night that i slightly remember, and it really sucks... i shoulda ran and got the dream journal i've been keeping forever... but it had a special someone whos been on my mind constantly since i was in like 8th grade or something. ;/ REALLY took me back and it really sucks that i havn't seen or spoken to this person in forever. I'm guessing it's becuase of another person involved, but what the heck could i know huh? who knows...
it got me thinking as i was headed to pick my lil sister up from school just a minute ago... i really wish i could work with Linda Perry so i could pronounce my love to this interest. haha man how emotional i would be. And the thing is, she doesn't have to know who it is, and at the same time, i could tell her open mindedly i would think lol but all in all for now i need to find my own ways of putting that out without fully putting it out like i want to in the future... i'd rather have that at the ready later. I have a feeling some people in my life would like to have a life with me... is it because of my music?; im not really sure. I just am too cautious about everything... lol i met someone in 8th grade, and from then on i've NEVER felt that way about anyone in my life before.... and it keeps me guessing because everyday im without them i think about that one time... hmm.
well tomorrow im going to the Puyallup Fair... with a friend and it should be fun! ;] uh im hoping next year i'll headline a show there haha, but untill then i have to get this DANG album out! EVERY one wants it out im telling you! over here we are going frantic! lol iono how it comes down to it but it always seems like im rushing to get something out. Personally i think i shoulda had something out already, so i guess that's why. But yeah we're hopeing the album is done completely in a few months. The single playing and in the UK by the end of October... and hopefully soon by the end of the year, during X-mas everyone could pick up Jairemie Alexander at a store near you! ugh, so stressful tho... i still got things i need to take care of on my part.
School for me sucks! lol i missed last weeks work which i have to do sometime this week... and i most definitely have to get this weeks work done today and if need be- tomorrow. URGH! lol time to get crackin!!! oh yeah and to mention that i have a wide crew that im gathering!!! ;] yay! all that im missing is my BAND to back me up! i need good dudes... im really hoping i could find some girls too!!!! ;] they all have to be beautiful! that's the way i roll!!! haha hot guys & hot girls! anyways yep that's what's happening in my life as of now on another chill spot. ;] don't forget to check out DISCREET (<--click there)...a new web series starting September 23! ;] don't miss! lol grama said it's only a matter of time... and i believe her!! ;]
jairemie
it got me thinking as i was headed to pick my lil sister up from school just a minute ago... i really wish i could work with Linda Perry so i could pronounce my love to this interest. haha man how emotional i would be. And the thing is, she doesn't have to know who it is, and at the same time, i could tell her open mindedly i would think lol but all in all for now i need to find my own ways of putting that out without fully putting it out like i want to in the future... i'd rather have that at the ready later. I have a feeling some people in my life would like to have a life with me... is it because of my music?; im not really sure. I just am too cautious about everything... lol i met someone in 8th grade, and from then on i've NEVER felt that way about anyone in my life before.... and it keeps me guessing because everyday im without them i think about that one time... hmm.
well tomorrow im going to the Puyallup Fair... with a friend and it should be fun! ;] uh im hoping next year i'll headline a show there haha, but untill then i have to get this DANG album out! EVERY one wants it out im telling you! over here we are going frantic! lol iono how it comes down to it but it always seems like im rushing to get something out. Personally i think i shoulda had something out already, so i guess that's why. But yeah we're hopeing the album is done completely in a few months. The single playing and in the UK by the end of October... and hopefully soon by the end of the year, during X-mas everyone could pick up Jairemie Alexander at a store near you! ugh, so stressful tho... i still got things i need to take care of on my part.
School for me sucks! lol i missed last weeks work which i have to do sometime this week... and i most definitely have to get this weeks work done today and if need be- tomorrow. URGH! lol time to get crackin!!! oh yeah and to mention that i have a wide crew that im gathering!!! ;] yay! all that im missing is my BAND to back me up! i need good dudes... im really hoping i could find some girls too!!!! ;] they all have to be beautiful! that's the way i roll!!! haha hot guys & hot girls! anyways yep that's what's happening in my life as of now on another chill spot. ;] don't forget to check out DISCREET (<--click there)...a new web series starting September 23! ;] don't miss! lol grama said it's only a matter of time... and i believe her!! ;]
jairemie
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
VIII
okay, now i have tattoo pictures... lol all of them are pretty much the same but 
yes, I have a Roman numeral 8 (VIII) on my wrist. It didn't hurt like i thought it was gonna, so that pretty good, but currently it itches like crazy and i just wanna do something!!!! ahhhhhh! but yeah here they are lol ....i got nothing really else to say lol just wanted to show ;]
yes, I have a Roman numeral 8 (VIII) on my wrist. It didn't hurt like i thought it was gonna, so that pretty good, but currently it itches like crazy and i just wanna do something!!!! ahhhhhh! but yeah here they are lol ....i got nothing really else to say lol just wanted to show ;]
Monday, September 14, 2009
Discreet!
i am 18 years old... i do whatever i want. lol those are the chozen words i choose to get confidance in my mind from having a birthday yesterday! it was great!!! and i smoked a cig in from of my family for the first time! haha, no i can't say it was my first time but hey.. ;] there has to be some kind of first for everything right? hehe
but yeah... my album is pushed back ;/ that means im gonna spend extra time doing my album and making it better for your ears... i mean, im super alright with it! i wanna get into it, the only prob is that i hate re-recording anything, cuz i feel it looses it's authenticity and i don't feel that same emotion... but like EVERY recording, i gotta take my time and go through it properly. I know im just gonna have bits and pieces here and there where we could get all the perfects together haha.
so what im looking at, is releasing the mastered crisp version of "Cry Diamonds" to Germany in like a month! amazing, and then from there on hopefully i have the video of it done, then onto going out there... then onto releasing the album or whatever it's gonna be!!! it's gonna at least be something nice. lol i was just thinking about how much i have to maintain this "look" of mine for a while... dude, im wondering what the hell im gonna look like for this next different album!
all in do time, and patience! i just need to sit back and enjoy a cig, make some money and work as hard as i could until i really get into doing the one thing i love for life! ya know... but anyways... today is a dreadful day. Homework. ;[ NOT looking forward to it at all... hopefully throughout the day i will get every single little thing done for this week. i sware it wasn't intence as it is this starting year... only two weeks and i feel like crapping my pants! the horror!
oh yeah that was really messed up what Kanye did and the VMAs... Taylor is such a great person and she really absolutely deserved that Moon Man!!!! she's dominating! ;] it's so great to watch... and hopefully soon be in that same position performing and whatnot! ;] yeah well, im gonna smoke (maybe) then go to sleep... got a lot to think about tomorrow! ugh in another note... soon im gonna have videos posted maybe here and definitely my YouTube page of a series of videos called Discreet showing you the little steps im taking towards "Cry Diamonds" release and album fun! ;]
bye now!
but yeah... my album is pushed back ;/ that means im gonna spend extra time doing my album and making it better for your ears... i mean, im super alright with it! i wanna get into it, the only prob is that i hate re-recording anything, cuz i feel it looses it's authenticity and i don't feel that same emotion... but like EVERY recording, i gotta take my time and go through it properly. I know im just gonna have bits and pieces here and there where we could get all the perfects together haha.
so what im looking at, is releasing the mastered crisp version of "Cry Diamonds" to Germany in like a month! amazing, and then from there on hopefully i have the video of it done, then onto going out there... then onto releasing the album or whatever it's gonna be!!! it's gonna at least be something nice. lol i was just thinking about how much i have to maintain this "look" of mine for a while... dude, im wondering what the hell im gonna look like for this next different album!
all in do time, and patience! i just need to sit back and enjoy a cig, make some money and work as hard as i could until i really get into doing the one thing i love for life! ya know... but anyways... today is a dreadful day. Homework. ;[ NOT looking forward to it at all... hopefully throughout the day i will get every single little thing done for this week. i sware it wasn't intence as it is this starting year... only two weeks and i feel like crapping my pants! the horror!
oh yeah that was really messed up what Kanye did and the VMAs... Taylor is such a great person and she really absolutely deserved that Moon Man!!!! she's dominating! ;] it's so great to watch... and hopefully soon be in that same position performing and whatnot! ;] yeah well, im gonna smoke (maybe) then go to sleep... got a lot to think about tomorrow! ugh in another note... soon im gonna have videos posted maybe here and definitely my YouTube page of a series of videos called Discreet showing you the little steps im taking towards "Cry Diamonds" release and album fun! ;]
bye now!
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Balls Passing Because of the Feul
today is the day before tomorrow! and you know what tomorrow is!!! i turn 18yrs old!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im suppose to know what i want! lol this whole week has been a slow boring one! there's been nothing really going on but taking my brother and sister's to school every morning (well, most mornings) and then being sleep deprived because i keep thinking of ideas in my head that i need for the near future! but over all it is a decent week, i turn 18 next week!!!
today i get my first tattoo!!! an hour from writing this blog!!! Excitement! later i'll post some pics up of everything! and then i'll post the meaning of it since people wouldn't really know what it means or why it is numeric. I soon too need to take a shower! i logged on twitter for the first time ina long time! just to find that i need a phone to enjoy it more lol... sitting on the web texting about my life in a room all alone just doesn't do! haha
well didn't we have a ball last night though? it was just fueling my confidance last night when someone so selfish and big-headed talks about my mother the way he did... after hearing all that (im guessing he doesn't know me and mom talk all the time) i have absolute no respect for the guy anymore, i mean it's all gone for good now. For a while it has been drifting off, and now i could finaly be done with it, i mean EVERYTHING about it. Nothing left to say, as i say on my outro on my album 'The Passing' pheww.. now it's time to focus on getting my album done like crisp and clean!!! ;]]]
oh by the way, i got a merchandise website up and ready for you to purchase some shirts as well as my first single 'Cry Diamonds'! check that out on my music page. At any rate... im ready to go perform, i gotta lotta things that i need to do, as far as previewing my album art and making sure everything's going well with the crew! my merch, my music, and maintaining my image! it seems like money is tight these days, but i grew up with a family that makes the best of things and what is best is going to change all of our lives. It is only a matter of time. bye now!
today i get my first tattoo!!! an hour from writing this blog!!! Excitement! later i'll post some pics up of everything! and then i'll post the meaning of it since people wouldn't really know what it means or why it is numeric. I soon too need to take a shower! i logged on twitter for the first time ina long time! just to find that i need a phone to enjoy it more lol... sitting on the web texting about my life in a room all alone just doesn't do! haha
well didn't we have a ball last night though? it was just fueling my confidance last night when someone so selfish and big-headed talks about my mother the way he did... after hearing all that (im guessing he doesn't know me and mom talk all the time) i have absolute no respect for the guy anymore, i mean it's all gone for good now. For a while it has been drifting off, and now i could finaly be done with it, i mean EVERYTHING about it. Nothing left to say, as i say on my outro on my album 'The Passing' pheww.. now it's time to focus on getting my album done like crisp and clean!!! ;]]]
oh by the way, i got a merchandise website up and ready for you to purchase some shirts as well as my first single 'Cry Diamonds'! check that out on my music page. At any rate... im ready to go perform, i gotta lotta things that i need to do, as far as previewing my album art and making sure everything's going well with the crew! my merch, my music, and maintaining my image! it seems like money is tight these days, but i grew up with a family that makes the best of things and what is best is going to change all of our lives. It is only a matter of time. bye now!
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Caffine Free, Citrus Burst 2.1QT Bottle
back home. and i loved the stay... my mood is something right now, where i am agitated. Is that right? anyways... we really really had a great stay in Cali... i loved it soooo much, and my family twice as much! im really looking forward to going back, maybe doing some work there or something, but of course visiting the family. hmmm...
but now im back home with absolutely nothing to do. im about to check my school real quickly after this blog and then go to sleep... i don't wanna tho!!! ;[ lol earlier i made another grand ol shirt for my merch of which Kari & I are working together on. Everything's coming out great, and just in time for my album release. I have many different ideas that are in my head right now, and i gotta get them on paper. Haha, so much of this and im wondering if my head is gonna be on this merch thing forever and when my mind is gonna blow over with new songs for the next album.
mom was talking about how she got her plane tick to germany!!! so exciting! well... im saying that in spite of how it's Germany, and not how im NOT going ;/ lol. Me and my best friend of like 7-8 years are discussing getting a place in Seattle... im DOWN!!! so many oppertunities and stuff... i mean it's a much different atmosphere than being in LA or NY. i guess everyone would wanna know about our happenings over those places much rather than Seattle. but Seattle is such an "undercover" media spot if ya know what i mean... doesn't get much action as the rest but it still is one of the best cities, no? anyways yes me & Alex are down for the count... and hopefully soon enough. Since i have a job now...??? lol well, it's a job that i don't see money coming for a while, so im gonna have to get a side job for now.
im really looking forward to meeting new people and spending my life by myself nonetheless.. i know it's gonna be soooo different. A lot of people, while i was in school, told people around me i wasn't gonna make it. if only i herd those things directly....... but i see how it was, and they're not really saying it now! im making sure my stuff is straight! no time to fool around. We all know this! ....but soon enough i need to develop a story board for my single, im hoping to have a few more singles out, but that's business crap that i don't wanna worry about right now! haha.
Well, i been reconnecting with some friends lately. I REALLY get the feeling some people are trying to catch me pre-stardom, pshh shoot as if i can even say that YET lol... i need to save those words for when i really get out there. im really seeing who my friends are... the ones who try to latch on and those ones i could tolerate and stuff, im VERY glad that i got rid of the ones i knew myself, were no good. So Glad. like i said, i am really looking forward to seeing/meeting new people that come into myself, and feeling happy with the people i do now have in my life. *taking subconscience notes in my head for songs*. This needs to get off the ground. EVERYthing needs to get off the ground...
hmm, while i sit here staring at this Caffine Free, Citrus Burst Squirt 2.1QT bottle im trying to figure out what else to think of! soon enough i'll have something crazy to write about and actually be motivated to write about it. There hasn't been any "in the moment" moments lately for me, if ya know what i mean... lol being back im trying to get used to the mix of things, which sounds so retarded, but i got a little lost in what i was beginning to do. i wasn't really doing much besides moving which SUCKED, but now im really able to handle and take care of what i need to. whoooo!!! time to strengthen myself! bye now!
but now im back home with absolutely nothing to do. im about to check my school real quickly after this blog and then go to sleep... i don't wanna tho!!! ;[ lol earlier i made another grand ol shirt for my merch of which Kari & I are working together on. Everything's coming out great, and just in time for my album release. I have many different ideas that are in my head right now, and i gotta get them on paper. Haha, so much of this and im wondering if my head is gonna be on this merch thing forever and when my mind is gonna blow over with new songs for the next album.
mom was talking about how she got her plane tick to germany!!! so exciting! well... im saying that in spite of how it's Germany, and not how im NOT going ;/ lol. Me and my best friend of like 7-8 years are discussing getting a place in Seattle... im DOWN!!! so many oppertunities and stuff... i mean it's a much different atmosphere than being in LA or NY. i guess everyone would wanna know about our happenings over those places much rather than Seattle. but Seattle is such an "undercover" media spot if ya know what i mean... doesn't get much action as the rest but it still is one of the best cities, no? anyways yes me & Alex are down for the count... and hopefully soon enough. Since i have a job now...??? lol well, it's a job that i don't see money coming for a while, so im gonna have to get a side job for now.
im really looking forward to meeting new people and spending my life by myself nonetheless.. i know it's gonna be soooo different. A lot of people, while i was in school, told people around me i wasn't gonna make it. if only i herd those things directly....... but i see how it was, and they're not really saying it now! im making sure my stuff is straight! no time to fool around. We all know this! ....but soon enough i need to develop a story board for my single, im hoping to have a few more singles out, but that's business crap that i don't wanna worry about right now! haha.
Well, i been reconnecting with some friends lately. I REALLY get the feeling some people are trying to catch me pre-stardom, pshh shoot as if i can even say that YET lol... i need to save those words for when i really get out there. im really seeing who my friends are... the ones who try to latch on and those ones i could tolerate and stuff, im VERY glad that i got rid of the ones i knew myself, were no good. So Glad. like i said, i am really looking forward to seeing/meeting new people that come into myself, and feeling happy with the people i do now have in my life. *taking subconscience notes in my head for songs*. This needs to get off the ground. EVERYthing needs to get off the ground...
hmm, while i sit here staring at this Caffine Free, Citrus Burst Squirt 2.1QT bottle im trying to figure out what else to think of! soon enough i'll have something crazy to write about and actually be motivated to write about it. There hasn't been any "in the moment" moments lately for me, if ya know what i mean... lol being back im trying to get used to the mix of things, which sounds so retarded, but i got a little lost in what i was beginning to do. i wasn't really doing much besides moving which SUCKED, but now im really able to handle and take care of what i need to. whoooo!!! time to strengthen myself! bye now!
Friday, September 4, 2009
California Sun
today, we go to Califonia to see my papi. I am excited!! iono what im gonna ware... lately, i've been very stylish and worrying about what it is i ware everyday! lol is that a good thing? iono... i took some pictures the other day for my album and i put a lil something together... i always like to do things myself, because i just feel better about it ya know? which comes to me thinking, i haven't found anyone who i am compatable with! like, not as far as business or something like that, but people in general. Lately i have friends who end up getting on my nerves or i get tired in a sorta way, iono... i feel i need to change ever-so-often. The only people in my life i feel would never change deep feeling for is my own family ;] i love them all with all my all heart & soul!!!! ;]
but i just can't wait to drive all today ;] i love roadtrips, but at the same time im not really looking forward to 12 straight hours! haha id be looking forward to 18 hours when i take a flight to Barbados. Before, i was a little concerned for my album, wasn't sure if i had the right songs on there, or if the order was right for the feel... fortunately i am very comfortable about the list! ;] and excited about the September release... but on my side i really have to pull through, with all the artwork and everything. I'm getting some ideas from people and things so im bringing something new and appealing! it is really exciting and im thanking EVERYONE who has supported me through it all!
hopefully soon i'll be doing more things than i am now, with school starting and all, nothing's gonna stop me or scoot me away from my music!!!! ;]]] ooh and im so happy that Kari is making some shirts for me and promoting Cry Diamonds... ahhhh and thinking up oottherrr things as well!! ;] who knew i was gonna do all this artwork! ha i love it tho! *sigh* it's only a matter of time; but now!
but i just can't wait to drive all today ;] i love roadtrips, but at the same time im not really looking forward to 12 straight hours! haha id be looking forward to 18 hours when i take a flight to Barbados. Before, i was a little concerned for my album, wasn't sure if i had the right songs on there, or if the order was right for the feel... fortunately i am very comfortable about the list! ;] and excited about the September release... but on my side i really have to pull through, with all the artwork and everything. I'm getting some ideas from people and things so im bringing something new and appealing! it is really exciting and im thanking EVERYONE who has supported me through it all!
hopefully soon i'll be doing more things than i am now, with school starting and all, nothing's gonna stop me or scoot me away from my music!!!! ;]]] ooh and im so happy that Kari is making some shirts for me and promoting Cry Diamonds... ahhhh and thinking up oottherrr things as well!! ;] who knew i was gonna do all this artwork! ha i love it tho! *sigh* it's only a matter of time; but now!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Mamma Jam!!
alrightly! let's see what i've done in the past few days! yesterday was one of the hardest days of my life... but to be less dramatic, let's say i struggled a little yesterday. ha, well me & mom, derrick and julia cleaned the house to make it perfect for the people who were gonna move in the day OF! how awful is that!? well, i ended up taking julia & derrick home round 3 in the morn cuz they were tired and i went back home. Earlier i went to see Final Destination 4 with Shauntae and some friends in Yelm... a STUPiD movie!!!!! no wonder they showed it in 3D. THAT was a cool lil add-on but everything else was gay! lol so yeah, i dropped her off and then alllll through the night we went on moving things back & forth from grama's house. sooo stressful.
It was about 5am when i decided to go get some coffee for us to keep alive and stuff haha (regular white chocolate mocha & tripple shot caramel mocha) then we took a break for like, 2 HOURS haha then we went back to work! with like 2 more hours to spare we tried our best to make everything beautiful lol. the land lord came and frantically searched the house and what not. ANNOYiNG!! lol but i had the best freakin sleep ever!! with my 3 blankets and soft mink cover pillow! ;] haha
further back in the days i had a show!!! @ Hip Hop in the Park by D.A.S.H.
oh man, let me tell you this story. It was crazy, i mean a crazy situation. So, the night before we go to this guy's house and he was telling me i should do 2-3 songs when i had already planned for 5 songs. It was kinda insulting to me, cuz he said people would "lose interest"... uhmm hmm... but i disreguarded that. But i was there and feeling a little awkward knowing that i am already signed with a record label and they are wanting really bad to sign me...... i would not want to with them! anyways... yeah, after showing them my single and everything they want to control everything about my part which is completely irritating to me! the next day i get to the venue (my piece is set @ 5:45pm) they told me to be there by 12:00pm, but i was like heck nah! haha and showed at 3pm almost 4pm lol... and he says to my mom/manager, indirectly to me, that i was set to do 1 SONG!!! and this other artist was gonna be slipped in when he already performed earlier!!! NO!! i got soooo freakin maddD!!!!! FOR REAL! so i talked to Candy. the beautiful lady who was REALLY running the whole thing, and told her i wasn't associated with them... it was rediculous. So she told me to keep on doing my thing and i had 15mins to do it so i was good, and not to worry. So i pretty much enjoyed watching him think he could tell me what to do, and thinking he was boss. lol i performed all my 5 songs and had a great show! lol
This situation really got me to develop tough skin & not let people run you that shouldn't. After that i went to my record label to celebrate and talk about some things as well as perform ;]. I now know that my full-length self-titled album will be released at the end of September. We're probably gonna release it out in the U.S. but we are more excited about it going to the U.K. and all of Europe, well at least i am more excited about that more than anything. Hopefully soon i could come out there as well to give um some of me! ;] -im just so excited about working with different types of people on my NEXT album too starting very soon! hmm... i just still don't know what to think about things... shoot, im starting school again, like, tomorrow! and it is not very thrilling. Im just glad i do not have to get up every freakin day in the early morning like a Crow. lol but all these things that happen i am very thankful... and suprized that it comes outta no where!
Buuuuuuuutttttt- right now im about to take my brother to his first day of high school!!!! WHAT?! it's so wierd!!!! now mom has a child in every school level thingy haha ya know, Elementary, Junior High & High School!!! hmm, wait until she hears me spell that out for her!! lol. hmmmm... but today im just gonna relax, get a little rest, settle as much as i could before i go back into being organized on my computer! sucks! ha we leave to Cali on the 4th until the 7th!! ;] and im almost 18! ugh, i just can't wait to do many "different" things! HAAAA there is, really, so many! ha WELP!!! gotta keep continuing the change. i guess in society, 18 is a big step... pshh no big deal ;] ....bye now!
It was about 5am when i decided to go get some coffee for us to keep alive and stuff haha (regular white chocolate mocha & tripple shot caramel mocha) then we took a break for like, 2 HOURS haha then we went back to work! with like 2 more hours to spare we tried our best to make everything beautiful lol. the land lord came and frantically searched the house and what not. ANNOYiNG!! lol but i had the best freakin sleep ever!! with my 3 blankets and soft mink cover pillow! ;] haha
further back in the days i had a show!!! @ Hip Hop in the Park by D.A.S.H.
oh man, let me tell you this story. It was crazy, i mean a crazy situation. So, the night before we go to this guy's house and he was telling me i should do 2-3 songs when i had already planned for 5 songs. It was kinda insulting to me, cuz he said people would "lose interest"... uhmm hmm... but i disreguarded that. But i was there and feeling a little awkward knowing that i am already signed with a record label and they are wanting really bad to sign me...... i would not want to with them! anyways... yeah, after showing them my single and everything they want to control everything about my part which is completely irritating to me! the next day i get to the venue (my piece is set @ 5:45pm) they told me to be there by 12:00pm, but i was like heck nah! haha and showed at 3pm almost 4pm lol... and he says to my mom/manager, indirectly to me, that i was set to do 1 SONG!!! and this other artist was gonna be slipped in when he already performed earlier!!! NO!! i got soooo freakin maddD!!!!! FOR REAL! so i talked to Candy. the beautiful lady who was REALLY running the whole thing, and told her i wasn't associated with them... it was rediculous. So she told me to keep on doing my thing and i had 15mins to do it so i was good, and not to worry. So i pretty much enjoyed watching him think he could tell me what to do, and thinking he was boss. lol i performed all my 5 songs and had a great show! lol
This situation really got me to develop tough skin & not let people run you that shouldn't. After that i went to my record label to celebrate and talk about some things as well as perform ;]. I now know that my full-length self-titled album will be released at the end of September. We're probably gonna release it out in the U.S. but we are more excited about it going to the U.K. and all of Europe, well at least i am more excited about that more than anything. Hopefully soon i could come out there as well to give um some of me! ;] -im just so excited about working with different types of people on my NEXT album too starting very soon! hmm... i just still don't know what to think about things... shoot, im starting school again, like, tomorrow! and it is not very thrilling. Im just glad i do not have to get up every freakin day in the early morning like a Crow. lol but all these things that happen i am very thankful... and suprized that it comes outta no where!
Buuuuuuuutttttt- right now im about to take my brother to his first day of high school!!!! WHAT?! it's so wierd!!!! now mom has a child in every school level thingy haha ya know, Elementary, Junior High & High School!!! hmm, wait until she hears me spell that out for her!! lol. hmmmm... but today im just gonna relax, get a little rest, settle as much as i could before i go back into being organized on my computer! sucks! ha we leave to Cali on the 4th until the 7th!! ;] and im almost 18! ugh, i just can't wait to do many "different" things! HAAAA there is, really, so many! ha WELP!!! gotta keep continuing the change. i guess in society, 18 is a big step... pshh no big deal ;] ....bye now!
Monday, August 24, 2009
slowly increasing.
i just now decided to write a blog just now for today...
well, today i was suppose to go to wild waves, i guess im going sometime this week but still, today was such a great day to go out and have fun! but i have to go to the studio today to record Cry Diamonds and crisp my voice, hopefully it will sound better than the original if not, almost the same! i have so much to get done, oh and i have to fix some of the pictures for the single and stuff. hmm...
for those who don't know i keep getting asked, but my album is self-titled. just cuz it fits ;]... i hated deciding the title of the album, of course from here on out i will have to! urgh! lol anyways, we are sitting here in our new stay and im feeling quite well last night i ate a lot and watched like the first 5 mins of A Perfect Getaway, and then after watched like 10 episodes of SpongeBob!!! ;] i loooooooooove him! -by the way, im getting a tattoo of him smoking "something" on my lower back. (NOT A TRAMP STAMP!) haha off to the side and up a little bit. and then right after i want a "VIII" on my wrist. ;] then after that something completely original that i havn't decided yet heh
first off i wanna find out what im gonna do for the rest of the year and finish off whatever then continue on the biggining of the year and stuff- BLAH! im just SO EXCiTED! who knows what im gonna be doing. pretty much though i was gonna find bookings and stuff by myself then get the album out and not be able to promote it or stuff like that, but iono now obviously i have a label to do all that for me, and a very trustworthy one! im really excited! anyways... yeah today we are figuring out all the single stuff, which again is to be out and ready on the 29th of this month! just 5 more days from now!!! AHH! hopefully people will catch on, and appreciate the artwork and all... im kinda excited about one of my songs from the album to be previewed too...
a video for the single is soon to be in the works as well, and i believe now is the time i should build up my concepts for that. disregarding all the things and mishaps that happened in the past, dude, it is really now the time to move on! to busy for all that! yeah yeah yeah, well hopefully i could tell you more interesting things in store for later! ;] right now is just a good time (in a positive mind) to sit down and write write write a blog, happily. lol i think i write too much sometimes. yeah but now, i gotta go, i have to get things ready since i have nowhere to go untill like 5 or something like that ;] bye now!
well, today i was suppose to go to wild waves, i guess im going sometime this week but still, today was such a great day to go out and have fun! but i have to go to the studio today to record Cry Diamonds and crisp my voice, hopefully it will sound better than the original if not, almost the same! i have so much to get done, oh and i have to fix some of the pictures for the single and stuff. hmm...
for those who don't know i keep getting asked, but my album is self-titled. just cuz it fits ;]... i hated deciding the title of the album, of course from here on out i will have to! urgh! lol anyways, we are sitting here in our new stay and im feeling quite well last night i ate a lot and watched like the first 5 mins of A Perfect Getaway, and then after watched like 10 episodes of SpongeBob!!! ;] i loooooooooove him! -by the way, im getting a tattoo of him smoking "something" on my lower back. (NOT A TRAMP STAMP!) haha off to the side and up a little bit. and then right after i want a "VIII" on my wrist. ;] then after that something completely original that i havn't decided yet heh
first off i wanna find out what im gonna do for the rest of the year and finish off whatever then continue on the biggining of the year and stuff- BLAH! im just SO EXCiTED! who knows what im gonna be doing. pretty much though i was gonna find bookings and stuff by myself then get the album out and not be able to promote it or stuff like that, but iono now obviously i have a label to do all that for me, and a very trustworthy one! im really excited! anyways... yeah today we are figuring out all the single stuff, which again is to be out and ready on the 29th of this month! just 5 more days from now!!! AHH! hopefully people will catch on, and appreciate the artwork and all... im kinda excited about one of my songs from the album to be previewed too...
a video for the single is soon to be in the works as well, and i believe now is the time i should build up my concepts for that. disregarding all the things and mishaps that happened in the past, dude, it is really now the time to move on! to busy for all that! yeah yeah yeah, well hopefully i could tell you more interesting things in store for later! ;] right now is just a good time (in a positive mind) to sit down and write write write a blog, happily. lol i think i write too much sometimes. yeah but now, i gotta go, i have to get things ready since i have nowhere to go untill like 5 or something like that ;] bye now!
Sunday, August 23, 2009
extrodinary day! ...not
i was not looking forward today! as soon as i woke this morning (@ 11:30) it was the start of something i did not want to do. Pack & move! so dumb... and im very tired from it all!!!! but im here at my grama's chillin and listening to some more complaining, everyone is tired it ain't even funny. I'm just wishing everything will blow over and i could be stress free.. and hopefully tomorrow will be cool. going to wild waves lol. id rather go to the fair, but hey, don't really care at this point in time.
in other things, i am freakin bored!!! iono how im gonna deal with being here all the time, like i said before i cannot wait to get outta here and get my own place.. i keep wondering about what my grama has planned for my living spot over here, but im not pushing anything or something like that, because, i don't even know about myself!!! im almost 18 like i said before, and when that comes round, apparently we could "do whatever we want". and what i WANT to do is go out and find a place to chill and a job to do.
i have an album ready to be released and all i wanna do is travel everywhere and have a good time! not worry about what the fuck im waring that day or some shit- just wanna have fun. that's the stress of having an album and touring/getting it out there....... URGH! well, when it comes right down to it anyways. (this is me just ranting about what im gonna expect.) i cannot wait, thought, to hang with some of my close friends, but what is way better than that, is meeting newer people who in my case are chill and ready to have any type of fun. and i could be cool and loving it.
ahh... but i might just go to bed here soon, after doing things i did not what to do. im gonna eat, possible watch some movies, and GO TO BED! cuz i have to do some things i don't wanna do AGAiN. anyways, something positive, cuz someone here is telling me not to be so negetive on this.... lol lemme think....... well i talked to my label exec today and she helped with our moving, and we talked about some stuff for my album and the single and stuff, and i got to see the finished piece of what the main CD looks like ;] i love it, and it's so different. Some people may not like it, but that's the thing. i wanna have things that people love and hate... the harder part is just having those who don't like it as much complain to you, im getting use to it though.
but overall the single's looking very nice! and i hope everyone likes it as is! THENNNN, soon i will have the full-length debut album out and ready for purchase!!!! for this album, the album art is gonna be done by me and a little quickly like the single was, geez i tend to go non-stop on all those things. exillerating!!!!!!!!!!! urgh, yeeeaaahhh im not feeling to well right now so im gonna go. oh yeah and my birthday's coming up and my friends wanna throw a bash for me!!! a definate hardcore party! ;] & ya know what i say to that?.. BRiNG iT! ;] anyways, im doing what i wrote eariler! haha
bye now!
in other things, i am freakin bored!!! iono how im gonna deal with being here all the time, like i said before i cannot wait to get outta here and get my own place.. i keep wondering about what my grama has planned for my living spot over here, but im not pushing anything or something like that, because, i don't even know about myself!!! im almost 18 like i said before, and when that comes round, apparently we could "do whatever we want". and what i WANT to do is go out and find a place to chill and a job to do.
i have an album ready to be released and all i wanna do is travel everywhere and have a good time! not worry about what the fuck im waring that day or some shit- just wanna have fun. that's the stress of having an album and touring/getting it out there....... URGH! well, when it comes right down to it anyways. (this is me just ranting about what im gonna expect.) i cannot wait, thought, to hang with some of my close friends, but what is way better than that, is meeting newer people who in my case are chill and ready to have any type of fun. and i could be cool and loving it.
ahh... but i might just go to bed here soon, after doing things i did not what to do. im gonna eat, possible watch some movies, and GO TO BED! cuz i have to do some things i don't wanna do AGAiN. anyways, something positive, cuz someone here is telling me not to be so negetive on this.... lol lemme think....... well i talked to my label exec today and she helped with our moving, and we talked about some stuff for my album and the single and stuff, and i got to see the finished piece of what the main CD looks like ;] i love it, and it's so different. Some people may not like it, but that's the thing. i wanna have things that people love and hate... the harder part is just having those who don't like it as much complain to you, im getting use to it though.
but overall the single's looking very nice! and i hope everyone likes it as is! THENNNN, soon i will have the full-length debut album out and ready for purchase!!!! for this album, the album art is gonna be done by me and a little quickly like the single was, geez i tend to go non-stop on all those things. exillerating!!!!!!!!!!! urgh, yeeeaaahhh im not feeling to well right now so im gonna go. oh yeah and my birthday's coming up and my friends wanna throw a bash for me!!! a definate hardcore party! ;] & ya know what i say to that?.. BRiNG iT! ;] anyways, im doing what i wrote eariler! haha
bye now!
Saturday, August 22, 2009
wow... ok...
dude, i am so tired right now!!! i was up all night doing some work on my single artwork. Im done, by the way, but i stayed up all night, then from there i had to go to my grandmother's house so that we could all be there to go to Seattle!!! so freakin much we did!!! & i totally drove all the way sleep deprived. very scary. lol i really felt drunk or something... glad i made it there and back safely. but i met with my new label! lol pshh only one person but that's good enough, we really feel good about them... & i'll most likly be with them for a year's time!
my album is gonna be released with them too!!! im so excited about it! my first single "Cry Diamonds" is up for release for the 29th or August!!! and with that the single along with a bonus track that is from the album will be up for purchase that same day after i perform them both... im still debating weather im gonna perform the bonus or not... but who knows... anyways. My mother is so excited about what is coming and so am i!!!! i cannot wait to do everything!!!! i wanna do it now! there is so many things happening, or is going to happen that im anxious to do!
we had some taco bell tonight and i had the best caramel apple epenada!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg, it was so good!!!! lol yeah, and we were riding around wasting gas talking about the current events. But now, my energy is so gone and soon as i am done writing this blog i will be right in my bed!!!! dreaming about love and happiness. ha, and currently watching The Nanny. i love this show!! ;] ... but yeah omg, you have no idea how tired i am... ALL DAY!!! so tired. yeah but i am so thankful for everything that's been happening lately. Things seem to now being pulling through after me deciting to move on from the dumb things in life.. ya know? yep
anyways i am off to bed! nothing that interesting today besides sleeping. that is pretty interesting but no consciencely- if i spelled that right.. lol hopefully i will have more feelings to express tomorrow. lol
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